SA mainly around strangers?

[justsomekid]

Well I am not sure if I have sa or not. When I am in school there is a group of kids which I hand around with, not really friends but more a place to sit at lunch and not be at a table by myself… anyways I am not that anxious when I am around that group of kids, or anyone else who I spend a little time with (family would pretty much be the only other one) and I can talk to them without freezing up. However when I am around anyone that I don’t know I get really nervous, have a sinking feeling in my stomach and a urge to just run away. I can scarcely hold a conversation with them, whether it be some random person on the street, a store clerk , some tech support person in India on the phone who I know I will never see again, or meeting someone who I may see again later. The ladder is obviously the worst but not by much. I have never had any friends, mostly because of really bad adhd that has only really gone away this summer, but the anxiety quickly took its place. I am on some meds now so I am not hyper, just really shy and scared. Do you think this is sa or just shyness or what. I never leave the house after school unless I really have to. I am scared to try to see one of my acquaintances after school. The fear of talking or interacting somehow with strangers makes me never want to go into public. I have never had a real”panic attack” where I run away and hide in a corner, so I am not sure if I have sa or agoraphobia. The name is just because I am paranoid and obviously want to stay anonymous; I really don’t feel normal at all

I already see a psychiatrist because I have been going though cycles of depression as long as I can remember, But I don’t trust him at all and I doubt I could ever talk honestly to him, parents just force me to go.

Can I get some advice from anyone please?