pure rage?

[misanthropic]

Hi all, i'm just another no-one -- i'm a 29 year old male who has been able to accomplish some things -- due to the fact that it is impossible for me to have a social life; thus I funnel my rage into other activities. But in this process I have become completely hollow;misanthropic and probably the most cynical bastard alive. I have developed such a rage for life that i'm basically suicidal -- yet i'm not selfish enough to my family to commit such an act. Anyone else get to this point? Where you almost want the whole world to taste the undying, mind-numbing agony that is life with SA? Or am I at the extreme end of the spectrum?

 

[social_failure]

I think I'm starting to get pretty close to that point...

Recently I've been getting so pissed off at life that I will actually start to tremble/twitch unless I do something to control it...unfortunately, I still haven't found a way of controlling it.
And I have wished for a while now that I could pick someone who I hate and make them live with SA, that way they'd have to endure the same sort of intense pain we do.

 

[misanthropic]

Hi guys...social_failure, I get the 'trembling' stuff too -- the only way I can control it is to funnel it in other areas. (extreme exercise and I became a helluva metal guitarist -- pissed off music is something we can certainly relate to) I can tell you this -- I have a psychology degree, i've tried many medications and had one-on-one and group therapy...and i'm still at square one. So i'm not so confident in any type of a 'cure' for us...one interesting thing I came across is a theory of us possibly being 'Indigo Children' -- you can try looking that up on the net. I don't know that it will mean much in the end but I guess you never know...maybe guys like us should go out in an 'appropriate' blaze of glory -- taking out pure scum. (like the 9/11 causing Islamo-facists)

 

[asubscriber99]

I faced the same problem too. but it does more harm than it helps.

when you have your anger directed toward people, it makes your life like shit, i don't know how to put that, if you've seen the movie "the bucket list" you will get it, it is like being jack nicholson, an always outraged, angry, unhappy man, yet very successful.

although it's my nature to be like that, (no not my nature, but because of what i've been through), i always try to control it, so i created a couple of rules in my mind regarding dealing with those outsiders bastards!!!!!javascript:emoticon(':lol:')
Laughing

 

[Social_Moth]

No to be a total party pooper, but I'm at the total opposite end of that spectrum. I want to get in touch with my spirituality more. I want to feel the same love for myself as I do for everyone else. I have a tendency to think everyone around me is so awesome, so unique and divine. Like I want to get to know them more but I don't know where to start. I feel like everyone's so cool that they're not going to want to have anything to do with such a loser like me. So I feel like a waste of time on their part.

I don't mean to spill my soul out here, but I just can't understand the misanthropic mind whatsoever. I wish I could be what I am on the inside, and let it show on the outside...

 

[misanthropic]

Hey Social_Moth, don't worry about being a party pooper...if you are at the other end of the spectrum, good -- and count your blessings. I certainly can't understand where you are coming from just as you can't relate to some of us maybe. I want to and have tried to get more in touch with my spiritual side...but I just can't seem to. I guess I feel way too hollow. At least you might be safe from the fate that awaits guys like me...haters always destroy themselves in the end. (thanatos anyone)

 

[asubscriber99]

if you feel like that towards people, that's pretty cool! i always wished to feel like that towards people, i just can't.

keep that dude.

 

[Zarrix]

I seem to get really pissed off at some things, but Do I ever show genuine emotion around others? Not at all, I am like a rock. It takes a hell of a lot to actually make me raging angry, infact I can't remember the last time I was raging angry.

 

[Bernie]

Hi guys...social_failure, I get the 'trembling' stuff too -- the only way I can control it is to funnel it in other areas. (extreme exercise and I became a helluva metal guitarist -- pissed off music is something we can certainly relate to) I can tell you this -- I have a psychology degree, i've tried many medications and had one-on-one and group therapy...and i'm still at square one. So i'm not so confident in any type of a 'cure' for us...one interesting thing I came across is a theory of us possibly being 'Indigo Children' -- you can try looking that up on the net. I don't know that it will mean much in the end but I guess you never know...maybe guys like us should go out in an 'appropriate' blaze of glory -- taking out pure scum. (like the 9/11 causing Islamo-facists)

Mianthropic! I think you're comments above are really offensive! Many of us feel rage, and usually for good reason, but the people on here are talking as if their the only ones! There was nothing right about 9/11 - I can understand people hating the american government (especially Bush) but innocents died on September the 11th! You obviously think very highly of yourself to call others "scum". Scum are the people who believe like you do!