Please help, friends!

[NewYawker83]

Hey guys! I posted on here some time ago, but things have gotten progressively worse.

Ok, here's my story: I've been out of work since December, and I'm supposedly going to graduate school in 2 months. Since late last year, every day, all I've been doing is staying home, practically bedridden. Like I feel apathetic about everything and have a total lack of motivation.

My passion for college, life, work, etc. has completely been obliterated. I was NEVER like this before. I feel like I'm spiralling downwards, and even grad school seems like an annoying chore (IF I have the stamina to pursue it). I also feel that since I've been home all the time, my mental state is deteriorating.

I've been seeing a therapist (nurse practitioner) for a month now. She's prescribed me 5mg Lexapro and 100mg Wellbutrin. I don't think that's enough.

I ask you all to please help me and give me any advice to get me out of this rut I'm in. I need to get my motivation and focus back on track, and not want to just sit in front of the computer and sleep every day.

Love,
Paul

 

[NewYawker83]

P.S.

I'm also considering holding off on grad school until next year and put all my energy into getting better. But in all honesty, I'd rather hope for a quick 2-month solution to my problem than have to throw away grad school for a year.

I really don't want to be this apathetic, bedridden, homebound, jobless 23-year-old guy.

 

[Marvolo]

I don't know what to advise you, actually. Maybe change your meds, if they're not enough?

Cheers!

 

[NewYawker83]

Yeah, I think that's what I have to do. My therapist advised me to go off the meds for the next few days and see what happens. Most likely, I'll need new meds and at a greater strength. I just hope something will be done soon

 

[Mondo]

Damn friend I feel for you... I can relate to what you are going through.

I've been struggling with mental health issues since 21... for the last eight years I have battled with depression, anxiety, SP and other phobias, etc.

Now I have had the past four months "off" and am recovering from Alcohol addiction. My main focus for these months has been to build a solid foundation so that I can stay sober (happily) and build a good life.

What I am doing now is building my life up. I am eating healthy, going to the gym regularly, counselling, working...

The one thing that I do recommend is to take action. Start small and keep the ball rolling with healthy things. I suggest make health your focus for the next few months. Focus on your sucess as you make the changes... don't beat yourself up for what you are not doing and focus on what you are doing and try to make it better.

 

[NewYawker83]

Advice well-stated my friend! You know what the problem is actually??? I don't get out as much as I should. I recently went out to this bar with my friend Thursday night, and I was the LIFE of the party. I kid you not!

I was having a blasttttt, and I never knew in my life I can be that social. For some reason, I think my bedroom is my "comfort zone," and I have to learn to stay away from it as much as I can (only to use it for sleeping haha). It's like if I get out more, things just open up for me. It's greeeeeeat