Yea so today I visited my sister and her two kids. For the majority of the time I tried to occupy myself with helping my nephew with his project. Pretty much I talked to my sister for like 5 minutes and it was pretty much about her iPhone 4s. After that I was silent or either trying to make conversation with my niece and nephew through the whole time I was there. I felt a lot of depression from thoughts that came to my mind. I've been wanting to tell her that I was gay with social anxiety and my performance has been dropping like mad since last year...just got the official letter from OSAP for 1 year suspension. The whole thing also makes me think of how to do the same with my dad and aunt...effin hell I can't take it anymore.... Its worse with my dad and aunt cause they speak vietnamese and can't speak/understand english, whereas I can only speak english fluently and can barely converse with them. I always give them one word answers cause I don't know anymore...I've been trying to find information on both topics in vietnamese, but I cant seem to find anything......fml