LavAzza
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Good day
I have this problem that started out when I was about 5 or 6 years in age. First I gave people a very vague description as to what it was that made me so anxious, thus not getting much help from parents ect. Later I developed this panic about infinity and how big the universe is, also then at about age 13 it became other things such as Closter phobia, fear of wide open spaces, fear of being trapped inside the planet with no air around us in the outer space. I was unable to play sports, go see friends and sleep over due to this phobia’s. it still is very serious today, and I have seen many professionals in order to get help. Anti-depressants is all the doctors can give me, but now days at age 24 it just does not seem to help. I shiver all the time, sweaty hands and the worst is the head aches, and dizziness. I still have the fear of infinity; it’s been around since I was a kid. It’s so bad that I cannot perform in my job. I get hyperventilated and dizzy each day, and I feel like I want to give up for good. I have bounced around medication and doctors, but they just don’t seem to see my seriousness of the problem. Am I alone in this? And will this ever go away. My whole life as I know it has been a struggle to be normal. Okay I know I complain a lot, but I think after so many years of suffer I can do little else; I really want to end this shit. If only death was easier I’d give it another try.
This sound very negative… hope I can get something out of this letter.
LavA – South Africa.
I have this problem that started out when I was about 5 or 6 years in age. First I gave people a very vague description as to what it was that made me so anxious, thus not getting much help from parents ect. Later I developed this panic about infinity and how big the universe is, also then at about age 13 it became other things such as Closter phobia, fear of wide open spaces, fear of being trapped inside the planet with no air around us in the outer space. I was unable to play sports, go see friends and sleep over due to this phobia’s. it still is very serious today, and I have seen many professionals in order to get help. Anti-depressants is all the doctors can give me, but now days at age 24 it just does not seem to help. I shiver all the time, sweaty hands and the worst is the head aches, and dizziness. I still have the fear of infinity; it’s been around since I was a kid. It’s so bad that I cannot perform in my job. I get hyperventilated and dizzy each day, and I feel like I want to give up for good. I have bounced around medication and doctors, but they just don’t seem to see my seriousness of the problem. Am I alone in this? And will this ever go away. My whole life as I know it has been a struggle to be normal. Okay I know I complain a lot, but I think after so many years of suffer I can do little else; I really want to end this shit. If only death was easier I’d give it another try.
This sound very negative… hope I can get something out of this letter.
LavA – South Africa.
