pathetic reality?? or best solution..?

[umbrella]

i am here in this planet after more than 30 years, and i continue being the person that i was when i was a child, a person who is very scared of other people.

For all my life i didnt know what i had, i just didnt feel comfortable with anybody, last year i found out when i was making a search for being scared of people, and i realized, that at least i am not the only one.

I read some stories in the forum, and i feel the same way, some stories sound a bit pathetic, it is funny but it is exactly the way i feel, so i dont want to write so much about feelings, but probably the best solutions that everyone here in the forum can suggest.

I dont feel comfortable with people, I dont feel comfortable when it comes to even work, and show the results of my work to other people, I dont feel comfortable when i have to write a test because if o fail people could belive that i am not good enough, and i dont want them to feel sorry for me. So life is becoming more and more difficult every day that pass.

I moved to sydney 1 year ago.. i was thinking that my fears could dissapear when i would be here but just before i came i realize that the problem was not my country, it was myself.

English is not my native language and i suck on it, so for me is really hard to go to work, and it is becoming more horrible every day. Sometimes i dont underestand what other people are saying, and like 90% of the time i dont know what to say, i dont have any friends at work, and i dont feel the necesity to talk to anybody, because lately it bothers me, because i have to make a big effort to make things to have sense. I am becoming more lonely every day, but what is worst is affecting very much my career and my dreams, and the idea of the person that i wanted to be.

I could really appreciate if somebody could give me some advice.

 

[revengeful]

no offence to u guys.But since u want a change,i feel u should consult a doctor or therapist.Im 21 this year and what the doctor told me is that he was surprised to see someone so young over there.Bcos people want to typically avoid seeing them till their pretty old.

I wanted to tell him this "Am i going to regret for another 10/20 years b4 finally plucking the courage to see him".I decided for myself,enough was enough.No one knew i went to see a psychiatrist.

I might not have an ideal life now.But i have already taken the first step to freedom from SA by seeing a doc.Im not going to avoid,i want my life back.You should too.Take action

 

[umbrella]

thanks very much for your suggestion. I have gone to 2 different therapists on the past none of them realized about what i had, it was just me ... so i am a bit reluctant to go to a therapist unless somebody could recommend a good one.
Thanks!