Sacrament
Well-known member
So as we all know, due to our fear of social situations, our fear of talking to others or being around others in general, we tend to get a bit clingy, we tend to depend on someone else's feelings for the sake of our own well-being and whatnot, as if our limbs need to be permanently tied to someone else's to make us go that extra mile.
The truth is: that makes everything worse in the long term. Sure, it feels good, it makes you feel loved and wanted, but what if one day you wake up and it's not there anymore? What are you going to do? Crawl back into the hole you've dug and rot?
One can only find true happiness when we are ready to be content with what we are and who we are, with our identities as individuals and not because of the way someone else feels. Plus, and no matter how cliché it may sound, it is true that in order to love someone, you need to learn how to love yourself first. That feeling of self-worth when someone has feelings for you, when you are in a relationship, distant or not, is only because of the other person, not you.
I want to be alive, I want to breathe, I want to explore, to write while sitting on a rock I've never sat on, to listen to music while breathing air so pure that it feels like the first time I'm breathing. I want to smile because the sun is looking at me. When you depend on someone's feelings, you are setting traps for yourself with every step you take.
How do I change that? How do I make myself feel whole? What kind of activities can I look for to keep me out of the house, to make me come home and have a story to tell, to feel complete? I work 4 hours a day, I'm in the process of taking my driver's license and yet everything seems so irrelevant. I want to save a life, I want to help, I want to be a hero, you know? I want to make my existence mean something. Don't we all?
So what have you found that makes you feel at peace?
The truth is: that makes everything worse in the long term. Sure, it feels good, it makes you feel loved and wanted, but what if one day you wake up and it's not there anymore? What are you going to do? Crawl back into the hole you've dug and rot?
One can only find true happiness when we are ready to be content with what we are and who we are, with our identities as individuals and not because of the way someone else feels. Plus, and no matter how cliché it may sound, it is true that in order to love someone, you need to learn how to love yourself first. That feeling of self-worth when someone has feelings for you, when you are in a relationship, distant or not, is only because of the other person, not you.
I want to be alive, I want to breathe, I want to explore, to write while sitting on a rock I've never sat on, to listen to music while breathing air so pure that it feels like the first time I'm breathing. I want to smile because the sun is looking at me. When you depend on someone's feelings, you are setting traps for yourself with every step you take.
How do I change that? How do I make myself feel whole? What kind of activities can I look for to keep me out of the house, to make me come home and have a story to tell, to feel complete? I work 4 hours a day, I'm in the process of taking my driver's license and yet everything seems so irrelevant. I want to save a life, I want to help, I want to be a hero, you know? I want to make my existence mean something. Don't we all?
So what have you found that makes you feel at peace?
