Hi there,
My biggest worries now are of contracting hiv/aids. It makes me want to not live at all anymore. While I'm out at work I often get some prickly sensation on my body somewhere like when I'm sitting down in a truck or something. I used to look around for a needle that would have caused that sensation but of course there was not one there. A couple weeks ago I had a boss standing over me, guiding me on how to do something with their computer software. I remember when he had his shirt hanging over me, as it was touching my arm, that I felt immediately uncomfortable, and, unsurprisingly I felt some kind of sensation on my arm. I immediately reasoned to myself that I was not stuck with a needle because I did not move or say anything when it happened. However, about twenty minutes later I went to the restroom and put a generous amount of hand sanitizer on my arm where I thought I had felt a sensation. Hand sanitizer has alcohol in it and I knew if I rubbed it over where I thought I had felt the sensation earlier, that I would feel a sting, you know. Even after this happened, I told myself there was no reason at all to think I was punctured with a needle. I told myself if I kept this worry in my mind that it would stick with me and it has for the last two weeks or so.
I noticed sometime after this incident, maybe the next day or a few days after, that there was a round bruise on that same arm. It did not seem to be in the same place where I thought the sensation came from, but it still concerned me. In fact in the middle of that bruise I had a mole. Now when I look at the mole there is a tiny dark spot there where I assume it is a skin pore or something. Anyway now my brain is telling me it is a puncture wound. However, since I do a lot of lifting of packages at work, I sometimes do get bruises.
In summary, I did not move or say anything when this happened. I rubbed sanitizer over what I thought the spot was a little later, I did not feel any pain after the suspected puncture. I did not see any blood. And also, the fleece that I was wearing that day sometimes seems to pull my hairs on my arm when I rub the arm. Now that I write it out I feel better already. I just wanted to share and let others know my fear. At work yesterday I actually had my first panic attack I remember ever. In closing, I really think I anyone would know without a doubt if they were struck with a needle, right? I mean you would not wonder about it right?
Thanks for listening.
EDIT: Also what made my worrying worse was that a week after that happened I got sick, sorethroat the first day and then congestion for another 5-6 days. Logically somehow I have dismissed this as just a cold, instead of early infection hiv symtoms.
My biggest worries now are of contracting hiv/aids. It makes me want to not live at all anymore. While I'm out at work I often get some prickly sensation on my body somewhere like when I'm sitting down in a truck or something. I used to look around for a needle that would have caused that sensation but of course there was not one there. A couple weeks ago I had a boss standing over me, guiding me on how to do something with their computer software. I remember when he had his shirt hanging over me, as it was touching my arm, that I felt immediately uncomfortable, and, unsurprisingly I felt some kind of sensation on my arm. I immediately reasoned to myself that I was not stuck with a needle because I did not move or say anything when it happened. However, about twenty minutes later I went to the restroom and put a generous amount of hand sanitizer on my arm where I thought I had felt a sensation. Hand sanitizer has alcohol in it and I knew if I rubbed it over where I thought I had felt the sensation earlier, that I would feel a sting, you know. Even after this happened, I told myself there was no reason at all to think I was punctured with a needle. I told myself if I kept this worry in my mind that it would stick with me and it has for the last two weeks or so.
I noticed sometime after this incident, maybe the next day or a few days after, that there was a round bruise on that same arm. It did not seem to be in the same place where I thought the sensation came from, but it still concerned me. In fact in the middle of that bruise I had a mole. Now when I look at the mole there is a tiny dark spot there where I assume it is a skin pore or something. Anyway now my brain is telling me it is a puncture wound. However, since I do a lot of lifting of packages at work, I sometimes do get bruises.
In summary, I did not move or say anything when this happened. I rubbed sanitizer over what I thought the spot was a little later, I did not feel any pain after the suspected puncture. I did not see any blood. And also, the fleece that I was wearing that day sometimes seems to pull my hairs on my arm when I rub the arm. Now that I write it out I feel better already. I just wanted to share and let others know my fear. At work yesterday I actually had my first panic attack I remember ever. In closing, I really think I anyone would know without a doubt if they were struck with a needle, right? I mean you would not wonder about it right?
Thanks for listening.
EDIT: Also what made my worrying worse was that a week after that happened I got sick, sorethroat the first day and then congestion for another 5-6 days. Logically somehow I have dismissed this as just a cold, instead of early infection hiv symtoms.
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