Hi, Thanks for reading my post. I have never done this before and to be honest it is hard for me to find the energy to even do this, i have been so down lately.
I guess i have ocd, but im not sure, so i will tell you some of the things that get into my head and i cant get them out.
If i have a girlfriend i will constantly think from things she my say or do, or her friends say or anything really that she has cheated on me or will, or that she does not find me attractive etc. The thought may stem from something unreasonable or from something that may actually be plausible. I will then try to 'work out' the problem in my head, in the end it often gets so bad i cant function i cant do anything, the thoughts consume me and nothing else in the world matters but solving the problem, i will then ask my GF millions of questions in an effort to reassure myself, i usually say things to her and ask her questions which sound ridiculous and it tears me up inside having to ask these things. If she does not answer them in a way which i perceive to be correct (which is usually the case) the cycle just continues. For example i may think from her facial expression or her tone that she is lying, or even worse i may forget what we were talking about and think of it at a later stage, then i will kind of make up in my head that she said something in a bad way and it means the worst.
In short a make up things i my head and believe them to be true and then obsess for hours, weeks, months and even years trying to work out if what i thought was true or not.
I guess i have ocd, but im not sure, so i will tell you some of the things that get into my head and i cant get them out.
If i have a girlfriend i will constantly think from things she my say or do, or her friends say or anything really that she has cheated on me or will, or that she does not find me attractive etc. The thought may stem from something unreasonable or from something that may actually be plausible. I will then try to 'work out' the problem in my head, in the end it often gets so bad i cant function i cant do anything, the thoughts consume me and nothing else in the world matters but solving the problem, i will then ask my GF millions of questions in an effort to reassure myself, i usually say things to her and ask her questions which sound ridiculous and it tears me up inside having to ask these things. If she does not answer them in a way which i perceive to be correct (which is usually the case) the cycle just continues. For example i may think from her facial expression or her tone that she is lying, or even worse i may forget what we were talking about and think of it at a later stage, then i will kind of make up in my head that she said something in a bad way and it means the worst.
In short a make up things i my head and believe them to be true and then obsess for hours, weeks, months and even years trying to work out if what i thought was true or not.