The_Beehive
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Pardon the Sherlock Holmes reference, but I have been unable to “crack my case” thus far. I am a 21 year old Junior in college. I am currently being treated for bipolar disorder nos with lithium and carbamazepine. I was diagnosed when I was 16.
Last spring, I was prescribed Adderall for a period of about six months. I quickly became addicted to it and started taking between 40 mg and 200 mg every day. Over the summer I experienced a brutal psychological withdrawal that lasted for around two months.
Ever since this time, I have been unable to make any efforts to meet/ “hook up” with women. I have always been able to succeed in this area and am still an extrovert in every other way. I think a lot about how to solve this issue every day.
I believe I have aspects of narcissism in that I focus so intensely on improving myself, talking about it with friends constantly. More importantly, I have started to think that I have a social phobia related to fear of rejection (but not in any other social interactions).
It seems like I have tried every trick in the book to try to get over this problem. When I completely force myself to speak to women it just becomes a platonic conversation with no attraction whatsoever. Sorry to include this detail, but I am also a chronic masturbator and have been unable to stop.
Does anyone have similar experiences or suggestions? Is it likely that I need to change my medication cocktail? Perhaps my brain will age sufficiently in the next five years?
p.s.- Here are some things I have tried to help myself get over this problem/ heal:
mood supplements: fish oil, 5htp, l-tyrosine (all of which help)
meditation: focus on breath, chakra/kundalini with teacher
law of attraction/ mental science/ power of positive thinking
regular exercise
regulated sleep cycle
pick up artist books (I have read them all)
healthy diet
staying “clean”: no alcohol, tobacco, marijuana, etc (I still do this and plan to continue)
psychotherapy: examining childhood issues (also, both of my parents are therapists)
psychological “tricks”, i.e. stop trying so hard, take a break from women, try to be more ‘mature’/grow out of it, etc.
Last spring, I was prescribed Adderall for a period of about six months. I quickly became addicted to it and started taking between 40 mg and 200 mg every day. Over the summer I experienced a brutal psychological withdrawal that lasted for around two months.
Ever since this time, I have been unable to make any efforts to meet/ “hook up” with women. I have always been able to succeed in this area and am still an extrovert in every other way. I think a lot about how to solve this issue every day.
I believe I have aspects of narcissism in that I focus so intensely on improving myself, talking about it with friends constantly. More importantly, I have started to think that I have a social phobia related to fear of rejection (but not in any other social interactions).
It seems like I have tried every trick in the book to try to get over this problem. When I completely force myself to speak to women it just becomes a platonic conversation with no attraction whatsoever. Sorry to include this detail, but I am also a chronic masturbator and have been unable to stop.
Does anyone have similar experiences or suggestions? Is it likely that I need to change my medication cocktail? Perhaps my brain will age sufficiently in the next five years?
p.s.- Here are some things I have tried to help myself get over this problem/ heal:
mood supplements: fish oil, 5htp, l-tyrosine (all of which help)
meditation: focus on breath, chakra/kundalini with teacher
law of attraction/ mental science/ power of positive thinking
regular exercise
regulated sleep cycle
pick up artist books (I have read them all)
healthy diet
staying “clean”: no alcohol, tobacco, marijuana, etc (I still do this and plan to continue)
psychotherapy: examining childhood issues (also, both of my parents are therapists)
psychological “tricks”, i.e. stop trying so hard, take a break from women, try to be more ‘mature’/grow out of it, etc.