mikebird
Banned
A tiny turnaround thought that's come up
After a few years of SPW, I've settled into a large volume of others' contributions to compounded paranoia, trust, doubt, that put me at ease, because we get the same troubles.
I've got into a self-trap of expanding fears & hate. Oppression from people who pin down or reject.
Everyone's in it for themselves, and it includes me. I want to get the gears spinning again. I want to dig out of the hole I've got into.
I think it'll be really easy, even when I am utterly alone.
A day might be good. Instead of my years of defence, wallowing in depression, I want to tune my attitude to rejection away from my recent futile strike outs, appearing weak, talking all about myself and my woes. I want to get back on track to the way I always was - determined & firm in my own opinion and have things my way. Willing to shout "F**K OFF!" and make a point and getting the best deal for all those involved instead of complaining.
Time to get something new from nothing
After a few years of SPW, I've settled into a large volume of others' contributions to compounded paranoia, trust, doubt, that put me at ease, because we get the same troubles.
I've got into a self-trap of expanding fears & hate. Oppression from people who pin down or reject.
Everyone's in it for themselves, and it includes me. I want to get the gears spinning again. I want to dig out of the hole I've got into.
I think it'll be really easy, even when I am utterly alone.
A day might be good. Instead of my years of defence, wallowing in depression, I want to tune my attitude to rejection away from my recent futile strike outs, appearing weak, talking all about myself and my woes. I want to get back on track to the way I always was - determined & firm in my own opinion and have things my way. Willing to shout "F**K OFF!" and make a point and getting the best deal for all those involved instead of complaining.
Time to get something new from nothing
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