gray_one
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Here's my first post, a short introduction of me...
I'm a 53 year old married male with no kids, but two cool cats. My wife & I live in an apartment. I've been on SSD for almost a year for several issues, Depression, Social Phobia, AVPD, OCD, Schizo-typal Personality Disorder.
Fortunately, the wife has a good job with insurance or I'd surely be on the street or dead by now.
For the past 30 years, my dysfunctionality showed up in not being able to hold a job longer than a few years at most.
On any new job, I was a "model' employee, and would learn the job "too well". Slowly, more work was piled on me and since I can't say, "No", there was never a shortage of work for me. I would then be allowed OT to work, longer & harder. I worked through breaks, and lunches because that allowed me to "hide" in my work.
Eventually, at the pace I was working, stress began building in me, which seems to make all of my conditions worse. I get more paranoid, irritable, isolated, depressed, etc.
Then one day, out of nowhere I'll snap at a co-worker, or boss & quit on the spot with no job waiting in the wings.
Since I had no social life, I saved like crazy with all my OT.
It was my savings that always carried me through the times between jobs.
I would often have to make many geographical moves just to find a company desperate enough to hire me. I was single most of the time, so I could travel quite light.
Will write more later...
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Here's my first post, a short introduction of me...
I'm a 53 year old married male with no kids, but two cool cats. My wife & I live in an apartment. I've been on SSD for almost a year for several issues, Depression, Social Phobia, AVPD, OCD, Schizo-typal Personality Disorder.
Fortunately, the wife has a good job with insurance or I'd surely be on the street or dead by now.
For the past 30 years, my dysfunctionality showed up in not being able to hold a job longer than a few years at most.
On any new job, I was a "model' employee, and would learn the job "too well". Slowly, more work was piled on me and since I can't say, "No", there was never a shortage of work for me. I would then be allowed OT to work, longer & harder. I worked through breaks, and lunches because that allowed me to "hide" in my work.
Eventually, at the pace I was working, stress began building in me, which seems to make all of my conditions worse. I get more paranoid, irritable, isolated, depressed, etc.
Then one day, out of nowhere I'll snap at a co-worker, or boss & quit on the spot with no job waiting in the wings.
Since I had no social life, I saved like crazy with all my OT.
It was my savings that always carried me through the times between jobs.
I would often have to make many geographical moves just to find a company desperate enough to hire me. I was single most of the time, so I could travel quite light.
Will write more later...
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Hmm my mom is an workaholic as well.