New here... And sad...

[Heavy_Moon]

Hi everyone...

I tried to understand me through all these years... and this is where it ends. I never understood why I was so stupid sometimes, when I was about to meet someone new or speak in public... Always depressed and hating myself...

I dont know what I'm feeling now... Happy for finding my problem... Or sad coz I thought arachnophobia was the only phobia I had...

Social phobia destroys my life... I'm gonna turn 20 (next 16th/April)... and I'm not happy about it... I feel like I'm losing all my youth coz of this feelings I have...

All the friends I had 'till now... They were all extroverted and happy and... everything I wanted to be... I try to be strong and calm down but I just can't... I don't wanna be pitty of myself... But there's nothing I can do...

When I was younger... I never tried it but I actually thought of suicide... I just don't know how to live like this...

 

[Danfalc]

I dont know what I'm feeling now... Happy for finding my problem... Or sad coz I thought arachnophobia was the only phobia I had..

Welcome to the forum heavy moon.

I can relate to how you feel i really can,im gonna turn 21 very soon and i feel like im just wasting my time watching the days pass cos i feel i cant do anything cos of my sp.

Im sorry things have got that bad that suicide has crossed your mind... things can seem very bleak when your really ill... but you now know that you actualy have an illness... and your not just some kind of mad freak or stupid idiot (which i thought i was b4 i knew i had it, and still do sometimes).

And you said theres nothing you can do... well now you know whats up with you, you can start to move forwards.. im not gonna lie and say its easier and quick but you can get better!

So yeah welcome to the forum, were all kinda in the same situation so people can relate and will understand.

 

[stardog]

Hi everyone...

I tried to understand me through all these years... and this is where it ends. I never understood why I was so stupid sometimes, when I was about to meet someone new or speak in public... Always depressed and hating myself...

I dont know what I'm feeling now... Happy for finding my problem... Or sad coz I thought arachnophobia was the only phobia I had...

Social phobia destroys my life... I'm gonna turn 20 (next 16th/April)... and I'm not happy about it... I feel like I'm losing all my youth coz of this feelings I have...

All the friends I had 'till now... They were all extroverted and happy and... everything I wanted to be... I try to be strong and calm down but I just can't... I don't wanna be pitty of myself... But there's nothing I can do...

When I was younger... I never tried it but I actually thought of suicide... I just don't know how to live like this...

Hey my birthdays on 16th April too! I'm gonna be 18, so not far off you

Don't look to the past or the future for answers. Doing that is going to keep you depressed. You gotta keep your feet firmly in the present, it's a totally different way of thinking. Go see a CBT counsellor, they'll help. So much can change within the space of a few months, I was in a totally different place a few months ago to where I am now. I'm definitely getting alot better, depression and sa-wise. Hobbies, diet and excersise all help as well

Just remember- You can get over this, It's not your life. You're only 19/20 you got plenty of time so don't worry so much

 

[slutkissgirl]

Hi there : o ) Welcome ! I hope you find support and friends here who can relate. Keep your head up, you'll make it through.

Hailey*

 

[Heavy_Moon]

Thank you guys... You really seem to understand me. I guess I've found the right place...

I would love to meet people with this kinda problem... I never met anyone with social phobia before...