New hear.. I am scared and need help please

[tonig]

Hi iam new here and am looking for support.. I have had these anxiety attacks for only 2 months maybe more .. all I know I have racked up over 10,000 worth of test just to make sure its not my heart. I had all the classic symptoms of one .. finally the last test a angiogram showed absolutly nothing said my heart an vein in very good shape.. Ok enough about that actually my chest started hurting about in January and thus all the test.. well doc said i had arthitis in my chest .. ok but after i left the hospital the last test which by the way all the time in the hospital not one pain an felt great . wierd huh.. well he gave me a precription for xanax .5 take it one time a day .. I was so tired and couldnt stay awake but never felt a pain .. not once but didnt like the feeling of being tired all the time .. he also gave me sleeping pills so i could get to sleep at night well went back for a follow up trip said it was the arthitis and he said to just stop taking the xanax after being on them 9 days .. ok stop didnt know by the way if there was any witdrawls.. they put me on celebrex for the arthisits took me off xanax .. that was on a friday .. by sunday night I as a reck my very first full force panic attack.. scared the heck of of me ended up in the ER they knew my heart was good so they said it was a panic attack and gave me xanax again this time .25 and that it would help me and sleeping pills at night .. night time is my most happiest time i can fianlly rest. but i take one xanax .25 around 1 in the afternoon and by 7 or 8 I can feel the anxiety coming on and I fight it till like 10 pm and do the breathing tech.. but its getting harder and harder to control them .. sometimes i get them during the day .. im wondering if im not taking a strong enough dose .. I can honestly say I have not had one day in 3 months that I can feel normal like i use to feel i was not on any drugs what so ever.. except priloxc.. I also am a diabetic controlling it with no meds just eating right and exercising which by the way brings on more attacks.. i just hate it that i cant control this thing . I have always been in control. and since Jan things are going down hill if i could just feel good just for one day I would be so so happy.. im tired of hurting .. and living on drugs.. I stress when im out with my grandkids and there parents you know youngins they can get crazy I love my babies.. also i get stress without knowing it .. I want to take more xanax to make me feel better but have been told to take one a day or when needed . well today I tred to stop taking them was going to try and wean myself off of them .. you know take one one day skip the next .. NOT . that did not work i usually take them around 1 in the afternoon and when i didnt by 6 pm that night i was having lots of attacks an they were getting harder and harder to control and i never want to go thru what i did the first time .. it was horrable so if there is any advice for me I would greatly appreciate it also i ahve lost 11 pds in the past month .. if i dont eat or eat less and keep my blood sugar close to normal i have less attacks .. Please tell me there is a light at the end of this and I can be back to the way i was before with lots of energy and happy .. i have also taken care of my mom and got her thru lung cancer she is in remission for the past year and been living with her the past three years. ok i have got to go the sleeping pill is kicking in and I have to be up by 8 for work.. i have tryed the breathing tech and sometime they help but im so anxious to get it over with i stop half way thru and feel like i need to go running or something .. gezz I also worry about strips for my diabetes . I have no insurance by the way im 54 years old and have been a diabetic for 4 years. and still keep my AIC down so i dont have to go on meds because of the simple fact that I cant afford them .. well once gain please if there is anyone out that undertands and can help me with getting thru this all i have read about is all neg about you will have these attacks the rest of your life .. I dont think I can live this way much longer its beating me down ..
Toni

 

[Septor]

I understand what you are going through.I had panic attack that were so bad that I was house bound for 4 years.It's a hard thing to deal with and it takes a lot of work but you can learn how to control them.It took me 2 years but I don't have bad panic attack any more and I don't even remember the last time I had any panic attack.So it can be done.

You should really stay on the medication.View it as a tool to help you while you talk to your therapist about why you are having these attacks and if you not going to one I would recommend you do because you have to understand why you are having these attacks.

Well anyway good luck its a hard thing to overcome but it can be done.

 

[tonig]

thank you

Thank you both for your replys. but I dont have insurance and I dont have the money to go to one.. I could check with the local mental health to see if there is a free clinic or someone to talk to .. but i know you both have heard this but im really not under to much stress and my work is good . actually while at work im feeling great .. im so busy I dont have time to think.. I did try not to take one of my xanax for one day to cut down but that didnt work usually by 1 pm i take one and i tryed but by 6 pm i was having problems and just said heck with it im taking it .. then later took my sleeping pill .. i love my sleeping pill .. i get so relaxed and fall asleep fast well within 30 minutes.. i wake up feeling refreshed and ready for the day. today i took my pill at the time im use to taking it and i felt good all day but around 11.30 i was watching a show with hubby and then started feeling the heart thing again .. I usually take it around 10 pm and am asleep by 10.30 so i guess i should keep up with that schedule i wake up at 8 am.. use to be able to sleep till like 10 am but since starting days that dont happen even on the weekends even if i wait till late to take my pill. Ya know the time i feel the best is when me a hubby go out to eat and he has me laughing we both live with my mom and take care of her.. she isent well she has copd and other things wrong with her I have been taking care of her for about 3 years now .. I guess that might be the cause of my stress .. I worry way to much about her constanly .
Also cutting out or down on my cafene my diet pepsi.. i use to drink about 6 or 8 cans a day but i hear that interacts with the xanax cafene that is so after 7 pm i drink only water that seems to help and i have cut way down on my eating doc also said that i have arthrtis in my chest cavity which i hear can bring on the heart pains or rapid heart beats.. I dont know i have been trying everything to stay normal but my diet had changed allot which depresses me allot because i have to be careful with having diabetis and having to eat three times a day but i do just very little so my blood sugar goes low .. but then when i do eat even something like a flour tortita and some cheese and chicken it shoots up to 200 its sad cause again I have done this to myself trying to keep my blood sugar down so i have not ate enough ... because it feels as though when it goes up so does my anxiety.. gezz sometimes you cant win for losing .. but am deternined to beat this thing .. I know im hooked on both drugs after one month after yesterday oh and when you make sure you have them with you at all times i guess thats addition.. if only i could keep busy doing stuff 24 hours a day i might not have to take anything .. lol
well my doc gave me refills for two months and ya know i am worried about after that even and i have another month and 3 weeks to go before i call him again gezz i am addicted.. I am afraid that he will just not give med addition medication to tapper off these things hey by the way can anyone tell me what strength xanax 0.25 is .. i have been trying to find that info on the net so i dont know if its strong or not I would be grateful if some one could help with that question .. I would hate to think that it is the strongest and i only take it one time a day .. help
Toni

 

[lawyerguy]

Hello there,

I too have had a period of strange anxiety attacks. It started 3 years ago when I was interning at a government office in San francisco. I just ate a pizza and I thought I was feeling the symptoms of a heart attack.. I felt all the symptoms,..tightness in the chest,...numbness in my left arm. I was only 25 but I was sure I was going to die. It was an awful feeling. I tried to keep it quiet after a while but I thought.."hey what if its real..and I die because I was to embarassed to ask for help?" .
So I had someone drive me to the hospital. BUt it was pretty humiliating the next day because everyone heard about my attack. It turned out to be nothing. I've also lost a friend during that time too because he got tired of my anxiety panic attacks. I had them for a about 6 months and then they suddenly stopped. I can relate to anxiety attacks. You're not alone