Hi.
So on Sunday I'm leaving for a 2-week course, something i really want to do and learn (not gonna get into details since it's not important), but at the same time I get a panic attack everytime I think about it. I'm gonna be placed in a room with a few completely strange people (I've even asked for a twin room, but it seems like they won't be able to do it..) and it makes me so ridiculously nervous. I can't fall asleep without browsing the internet on my phone before I go to bed and even the fact that I'm probably not gonna be able to do it, because the light from my phone would disturb the others, scares me. The other problem of mine is that I'm very picky about my food. It has always been like this and I hate it about me, but I can't help it. I'm gonna bring a lot of food like cereals with me, so I won't starve lol, but I know people are gonna stare at me when I will be sitting at the table looking at my untouched dinner.. Many of my friends think I'm just spoiled, because there's so many kinds of food I wouldn't eat, but there's nothing I can do about it, it just tastes awful to me.. I know it sounds silly, I mean it's just 2 weeks, but to me 14 days with complete strangers is a nightmare fuel. But, as I said, I really wanna finish this course, it might help me so much in my future work. I'm not sure why I'm even writing it here.. I guess I wanted to get it off my chest and you guys might actually understand it (my friends and family don't), and also ask you for some advice. How do I overcome my "fear"?
So on Sunday I'm leaving for a 2-week course, something i really want to do and learn (not gonna get into details since it's not important), but at the same time I get a panic attack everytime I think about it. I'm gonna be placed in a room with a few completely strange people (I've even asked for a twin room, but it seems like they won't be able to do it..) and it makes me so ridiculously nervous. I can't fall asleep without browsing the internet on my phone before I go to bed and even the fact that I'm probably not gonna be able to do it, because the light from my phone would disturb the others, scares me. The other problem of mine is that I'm very picky about my food. It has always been like this and I hate it about me, but I can't help it. I'm gonna bring a lot of food like cereals with me, so I won't starve lol, but I know people are gonna stare at me when I will be sitting at the table looking at my untouched dinner.. Many of my friends think I'm just spoiled, because there's so many kinds of food I wouldn't eat, but there's nothing I can do about it, it just tastes awful to me.. I know it sounds silly, I mean it's just 2 weeks, but to me 14 days with complete strangers is a nightmare fuel. But, as I said, I really wanna finish this course, it might help me so much in my future work. I'm not sure why I'm even writing it here.. I guess I wanted to get it off my chest and you guys might actually understand it (my friends and family don't), and also ask you for some advice. How do I overcome my "fear"?