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So, I had a few drinks tonight and thought I'd make a post. I'll probably wish I didn't tomorrow though. There's so many things I want to talk about but I feel if I post lots of new topics people will think I'm looking for attention or something like that and they will get annoyed. Theres so many things I think about all the time and I want to know what other people's opinions are about them but I've got no one else to talk to about them. I've got no examples right now but give me a day and I could make a list of them. If I'm on the spot I can never think of anything but later on I'll have so many thoughts or ideas that I get mad that I couldn't think of them before. Whats on my mind right now is (in a nut shell): School next month I can't stop thinking about how bad its going to be (this topic can be broken down further into why will it be bad and what can I do differently than the last 2 years of university), What am I going to do on the weekend (friend from work invited me out), What I'm going to do tomorrow, My future, Jobs, so many damn things that just randomly pop into my mind and add stress and anxiety to my life I can't get anything done. I'm leaving out so many things that I can't think of right now but this post is getting long so I'll stop after this; I'm afraid of rejection and not being good enough. I'm afraid pf people thinking of me as a loser or an idiot. I hate when people don't understand me. I always have good intentions but sometimes people think I'm an ass or a jerk. I wouldn't hurt other people's feelings on purpose or try and embarrass them. If theres one thing I could say to someone it would be just that. And with this social anxiety I can't act like a normal person and don't know how to display my emotions. Its really hard. :x
