iamthesolution
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"and when another question appears, obsessions thrive on all my fears, until the answer to my question is found, then it will resonate with silent sound ...tranquility is my virtue..."
i made up that quote above to somewhat express how i feel on a day to day basis. i'm 21 years old...and my ocd is getting out of hand. i also have panic attacks / anxiety disorder, and for that i am prescribed klonopin. that helps with the panic attacks / anxiety attacks, but not with the ocd. for me, it is much more of an obsessive disorder. i get caught up so much on thoughts, or on things on my body. for example, i am currently in the process of recovering from my fourth nose surgery...i have had a severely deviated septum among other nasal problems for the past five years or so. this last surgery was done by a plastic surgeon, and he took a rib graft and everything seems to be going okay. there seems to be some loose tissue and such in my nose / blood clots. some of those things i have removed. there is another flap-like thing in my left nostril, but i will wait until tuesday to ask the surgeon what it is. anyway, i'm almost sure the surgery was a success, despite the three before it failing. for that i am happy, but i am obsessed with my nose because of all this. i have had ocd since i was 7 years old, and though i do have rituals for brushing my teeth, etc...my obsessions seem to be my main problem.
i have been on effexor, lexapro, zoloft, prozac, and none really seemed to work. prozac actually made things worse i believe, and made me go crazy. i'm going to see my psychiatrist tomorrow to see what she recommends. i find the only time i am really at peace with myself is when i am asleep, or when i am under the effects of opiates (i used to abuse them recreationally, but not anymore as i know that is no true solution.)
anyway, i basically wanted to introduce myself. thanks to all those who read all of this. any comments and / or suggestions are welcome. please share if you have anything to say or related stories. i will probably frequent these forums and post a lot if i see positive reinforcement. thanks guys!
i made up that quote above to somewhat express how i feel on a day to day basis. i'm 21 years old...and my ocd is getting out of hand. i also have panic attacks / anxiety disorder, and for that i am prescribed klonopin. that helps with the panic attacks / anxiety attacks, but not with the ocd. for me, it is much more of an obsessive disorder. i get caught up so much on thoughts, or on things on my body. for example, i am currently in the process of recovering from my fourth nose surgery...i have had a severely deviated septum among other nasal problems for the past five years or so. this last surgery was done by a plastic surgeon, and he took a rib graft and everything seems to be going okay. there seems to be some loose tissue and such in my nose / blood clots. some of those things i have removed. there is another flap-like thing in my left nostril, but i will wait until tuesday to ask the surgeon what it is. anyway, i'm almost sure the surgery was a success, despite the three before it failing. for that i am happy, but i am obsessed with my nose because of all this. i have had ocd since i was 7 years old, and though i do have rituals for brushing my teeth, etc...my obsessions seem to be my main problem.
i have been on effexor, lexapro, zoloft, prozac, and none really seemed to work. prozac actually made things worse i believe, and made me go crazy. i'm going to see my psychiatrist tomorrow to see what she recommends. i find the only time i am really at peace with myself is when i am asleep, or when i am under the effects of opiates (i used to abuse them recreationally, but not anymore as i know that is no true solution.)
anyway, i basically wanted to introduce myself. thanks to all those who read all of this. any comments and / or suggestions are welcome. please share if you have anything to say or related stories. i will probably frequent these forums and post a lot if i see positive reinforcement. thanks guys!