I'm slowly recovering from my SP, but tonight, I found a time where it was extremely handy... Believe it or not.
Tonight, my buddy and I were out crusing around and we saw a good female friend of mine (lacey) and her friend out walking around. They yelled at me to stop, so, I did. We talked for a while and it was pretty obvious lacey was coming onto me. Seeing this, my buddy kept nudging me to offer her a ride, so I did, she accepted, and we went driving around.
We ended up at a cemetary outside of town where lacey and I flirted around. Nothing happened, one kiss, and that's about it. My buddy, being a complete, ingnorant, selfish bastard that he is, started "grabbing" both girls. Of course, they liked it, and I was left out because of my sp. Lacey noticed that I was being left out on the fun, and mentioned it and I said that I was ok (knowing that I wasn't). I wanted in on the fun, partly because I'm a guy, but at the same time, I didn't, because I knew what it would lead to (Laceys friend already had condoms out). I'm a very devout Christian. Like I said, being the guy that I am, I wanted to take part in the festivities, but something held me back. I think it was a combination of both God and my SP.
After I started driving away, Lacery's friend said something about dropping the two of them off at someone's house, and I did just that.
I feel like I did the right thing... In fact, I know I did, but at the same time, being a guy, I feel like I didn't. I know I'll be looked down upon because of this, but at the same time, I'm probably going to be respected for my abiltiy to control myself. I can only wait, hope, and pray that things go the best way.
Tonight, my buddy and I were out crusing around and we saw a good female friend of mine (lacey) and her friend out walking around. They yelled at me to stop, so, I did. We talked for a while and it was pretty obvious lacey was coming onto me. Seeing this, my buddy kept nudging me to offer her a ride, so I did, she accepted, and we went driving around.
We ended up at a cemetary outside of town where lacey and I flirted around. Nothing happened, one kiss, and that's about it. My buddy, being a complete, ingnorant, selfish bastard that he is, started "grabbing" both girls. Of course, they liked it, and I was left out because of my sp. Lacey noticed that I was being left out on the fun, and mentioned it and I said that I was ok (knowing that I wasn't). I wanted in on the fun, partly because I'm a guy, but at the same time, I didn't, because I knew what it would lead to (Laceys friend already had condoms out). I'm a very devout Christian. Like I said, being the guy that I am, I wanted to take part in the festivities, but something held me back. I think it was a combination of both God and my SP.
After I started driving away, Lacery's friend said something about dropping the two of them off at someone's house, and I did just that.
I feel like I did the right thing... In fact, I know I did, but at the same time, being a guy, I feel like I didn't. I know I'll be looked down upon because of this, but at the same time, I'm probably going to be respected for my abiltiy to control myself. I can only wait, hope, and pray that things go the best way.
