genre_andrea said:
it's scary to think about why we're actually here.
we only have what we're given right now -- but then what?
i think about it often, and i always get this insane feeling of emptyness in my chest. it overwhelms me.
but i would never stop living; it only makes me want to live for what's to come next.
This is pretty much what I feel about it. I am a very spiritual person. I go to church and i say spritual rather than religous because I hate all of the conformity and regulations that go along with being religous. Being tied to rules is not a way to live.
I would say im a strong Christian but up until lately have had that scary question come up....well what if? what if i base my life on something thats completely false?
Ive come to see the answer to this, I will probably never know. And i shouldnt get myself all "riled" up about it, I might as well be at peace with it.
My relationship with God keeps me going, as well as family and a few friends.
I still, not doubt, but "investigate" God, and wrestle with Him....strive to understand it. But even if I'm wrong, which I'm not saying at all (lol)...I know, like post I quoted said, I just want to enjoy life and see what lies ahead. Find small things to get excited about. Paint your nails, do something new, cook a new meal and be proud of it....
The meaning of life for me changes every day. But as far as SA goes, the meaning of life for me was enjoying me imperfections and finding humor in them. When you can truly be at peace with your imperfections, and love yourself, I think thats as perfect as youre gonna get. =)