My future seems so gloomy right now :(

[froghat]

I feel like I'm stumbling through life and it's never gonna change. Right now I'm unemployed and every job I really want, I get rejected. I even applied at two crappy retail jobs out of desperation and still no callbacks. Even if I do manage to get some crappy retail job, what's the point? It will be a dead end job that doesn't pay the bills. I'll still be living at home and that just makes my confidence even lower. I'm 27 with no job or friends. I'm not confident socially and I'm basically starting my life over again. The first time I recovered from anxiety I was in high school. It was tough, but much easier in a way. All I had to do was go to school and find a few friends. You were surrounded by kids your age and you didn't have the burden of being an adult yet. I had a huge setback a few years ago and now it just feels much harder recovering at 27 years old. At this point I would settle for a decent job, but it seems I have no luck right now. No one is willing to give me a chance. I'm pretty bummed. I just don't see how I'm gonna live a fulfilling life. I'm way behind, I have no career, no friends, and overall I feel like my social skills are killing me. I wish I could go back to high school when I was recovering and in good spirits. I feel like a pathetic loser with no way out of this mess. Things couldn't be worse to be honest. Why can I just be a normal person? Wife, kids, house, job... live life. I'm sick and tired of my problems!!

 

[sabbath92003]

This is the worst part of our disease: how are minds deceive us and tell us that all is gloom and doom. The latest ACT book I'm reading says to treat these thoughts and feelings like a story our minds are creating. Tell your mind "Hmm you're playing the gloom and doom story again, thanks, but I don't need to hear it again today".

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Maybe you can volunteer for a while until you find a job.

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Now if you're feelin' kinda low 'bout the dues you've been paying
Future's coming much too slow
And you wanna run but somehow you just keep on stayin'
Can't decide on which way to go
Yeah, yeah, yeah

I understand about indecision
But I don't care if I get behind
People livin' in competition
All I want is to have my peace of mind.

Now you're climbin' to the top of the company ladder
Hope it doesn't take too long
Can'tcha you see there'll come a day when it won't matter
Come a day when you'll be gone

I understand about indecision
But I don't care if I get behind
People livin' in competition
All I want is to have my peace of mind.

Take a look ahead, take a look ahead, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah...

Now everybody's got advice they just keep on givin'
Doesn't mean too much to me
Lot's of people out to make-believe they're livin'
Can't decide who they should be.

I understand about indecision
But I don't care if I get behind
People livin' in competition
All I want is to have my peace of mind.

Take a look ahead, take a look ahead. Look ahead