Assuming that this was the worst situation ever in your life, use this to get stronger
As I said here before, my best friend died few days ago and a person replied my post with "you need to hit the bottom" and I assume he is right.
I'd never been so sad all of my life and I still am, but I'm sure when other close person die, I will not behave this way.
It was a new experience for me to lose someone so close, I'm more mature now.
Hit the bottom, man.
Visit Hell and come back stronger.