me= sometimes an idiot

[çare arayan]

hi
what make people do stupid things? lack of experiences? or not thinking wisely?
i am talking about myself and how i put myself in very bad situation yesterday.
i want a boyfriend that's the fact i can't deny because it can help me grow, but every time i had a chance i said no because of number of fears and doubts.
when i don't think too much about doing sth, i do it better but that was my first mistake last week when i said yes to this boy and second one was yesterday that i went out with him. i should have left the moment he changed the subject. he was going to rape me i ran away and he said he was sorry but i wasn't really listening to him i was thinking why i always act like an idiot. i don't know how i feel i can't cry, i can't even think what i can learn from it. i don't have anyone to share this. thanks

 

[kihira]

You haven't acted like an idiot, you did well to get away. He was the one in the wrong and you had every right not to expect this to happen