gomerpyle
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hi, for one im an in and out shutin what i mean is ever sine i was 13 ive had problems with freinds, strangers etc i think it all started when i got bad acne i started thinking i was ugly and judging myself and so on. i wasnt a shutin at 13 though that started around 16 but i would be a shutin for months at a time than come out of it till something else drove me to be a shutin again. since 2001 ive been a shutin i only left a couple times to the denist i have no more freinds a freind i was counting on wanted nothing to do with me anymore and i havent heard from him since (i was freinds with him since like 5 yearsold or so). its gotten to the point where i cant even talk to people on the phone the only way i can interact with people is while online and thats not like the real thing. im on one anti-depressent called remron or something but really hasnt helped the only thing it did do is get me addicted to them. since i have such poor grammar its hard for me to explain my issuies but ive always had a troubled youth due to my mother being not mentally stable and she always tried to kill herself and going into mental hostiptals im not blaming this on her though. i find myself actually talking to myself i can actually hold conversatins with myself and with my family while im talking to them or when i went to the denist or whatever my mind would try and get me to say stuff i didnt mean? like my mind told me to emabaress myself i didnt do it but i was fighting it back. in other words i want to know where to start how do i get better? whats the first steps i should take?
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