Loneliness

[abc_123]

Does anyone here ever get lonely. I do. My loneliss contradicts my phobia. I want friends but Im too scared to get or have them. I think thats one of the worst aspects of social phobia. The loneliness.

At school, I see people shaking hands, hugging, kissing,sharing jokes. In movies I see people with friends, getting married, having kids.

Andthen I burn up inside and think FUCK IT, why cant I be like them. Why cant I make friends. Why the fuck do I deserve living through this shit. Another sad thing is that social phobics are nice people. I read it somewhere, it said "Sufferers of Social phobia are generally nice people."

The only real friends I have are online. Anyone here feel similar? But hey, on the bright side my therapist told me wanting friends is a good sign.

 

[rado31]

That therapist is very smart man ... "Wanting friends is a good sign"..
Has he got something constructive to say? :S

Not every SAer is nice, we have ugly people here :S

 

[Zipper]

I don't want to be a "nice" person. I would rather be an asshole than "nice." People with social anxiety tend to be superficially nice -- externally polite and inoffensive. But sometimes inside, they seethe with hostility, malice, and arrogance. I speak from experience.

 

[rado31]

I don't want to be a "nice" person. I would rather be an asshole than "nice." People with social anxiety tend to be superficially nice -- externally polite and inoffensive. But sometimes inside, they seethe with hostility, malice, and arrogance. I speak from experience.

Well i m opposite, on the surface i m an arrogant bastard, sometimes aggresive....it is a defense mechanism, because evertime i act like myself i m being verbally/physically attacked.

I m not allowed to be myself anywhere, thats why i feel down. People decreased volume of my comfort zone to my imagination, or/and i have some strange perception ,expectations and vision of what one human is : i have to look in the mirror lol . But again , Why are they pickin on me, i dont know.

 

[Vancouver]

I don't want to be a "nice" person. I would rather be an asshole than "nice." People with social anxiety tend to be superficially nice -- externally polite and inoffensive. But sometimes inside, they seethe with hostility, malice, and arrogance. I speak from experience.

That's true - to a point. I used to be far more shy than I am now, and I remember feeling EXTREMES. I would go from being happy, to depressed - and from polite to arrogant. God, I'm so glad I'm not THERE anymore. Those were some shitty days.

 

[Day_Tripper]

Just because you have friends doesn't mean you're not lonely.