COALPORTER
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I've been shy since I hit the first grade.
Then the kids were mean to me because I was fat.
These mean kids thought me to hate myself.
This prevented me form making friends with the few
kids that may have liked me. So I had little positive interactions.
Therefore almost 100% of my interaction with the other kids was negitive.
I am now very good at the negative and have no idea on how
to be positve.
Then my parents were not really paying any attention.
My dad was an alcoholic. My mom, manic depressive.
My parents also tought me to hate myself.
By the third grade I was really becoming withdrawn.
Making friends became harder over the years.
I had a very few friends in high school and never dated.
I've come to realize all of my social problems stem from
a core self hate. I am now trying to learn how to love myself.
Its very hard to do, with many complete set backs.
All I can manage to say to people is HI, GOODMORNING, how are you.
Most of the time I would like to talk to people but cant think of
anything to say so I just avoid or walk away. This wreaks any chance for a relationship with that person.
What can I do to stop hating myself? And turn on the POSITIVE. I know I'm a good nice person and I think other people think this also but they can never understand me because I dont interact. I think the reason i cant be social is because of my basic negitive self hatred.
Then the kids were mean to me because I was fat.
These mean kids thought me to hate myself.
This prevented me form making friends with the few
kids that may have liked me. So I had little positive interactions.
Therefore almost 100% of my interaction with the other kids was negitive.
I am now very good at the negative and have no idea on how
to be positve.
Then my parents were not really paying any attention.
My dad was an alcoholic. My mom, manic depressive.
My parents also tought me to hate myself.
By the third grade I was really becoming withdrawn.
Making friends became harder over the years.
I had a very few friends in high school and never dated.
I've come to realize all of my social problems stem from
a core self hate. I am now trying to learn how to love myself.
Its very hard to do, with many complete set backs.
All I can manage to say to people is HI, GOODMORNING, how are you.
Most of the time I would like to talk to people but cant think of
anything to say so I just avoid or walk away. This wreaks any chance for a relationship with that person.
What can I do to stop hating myself? And turn on the POSITIVE. I know I'm a good nice person and I think other people think this also but they can never understand me because I dont interact. I think the reason i cant be social is because of my basic negitive self hatred.