Just venting some anxiety here...

[Snowcrash]

What I am hating right now is justified anxiety... does that make any sense?

I mean I am always anxious, about everything, nothing, you name it. That is the irrational anxiety if you know what I mean. It is anxiety that doesn't make any sense, but it is there anyway.

But right now it is just getting compounded by real anxiety. There are just too many things going on around me that are causing me very real anxiety. And it sucks because most of it involves other peoples' problems that are overflowing onto me. It is bad because I can't fix their problems. But they still need so much from me. I was trying to fix one of the problems from my job and it involved making a phone call that was just awful. As bad as I had made the phone call out in my head beforehand, it really went much worse. I think I had been rehearsing this phone call all week in my head. I was expecting the person I was calling to be upset, but the conversation turned out to be far more hostile than I had planned on. It lasted over an hour and I was physically shaking by the end of it.

I'll stop there. No need to detail all of the messes going on around me. I think I am mostly just posting to organize my thoughts. Sorry if it is a real bore. I just hate how I feel right now. I know I just have to focus on positive things I can do to improve things.

 

[maggie]

hiya Snowcrash..at least you had the guts to pick up the phone and deal with whatever the issue at hand was..knowing it would likely be difficult :wink:

 

[Snowcrash]

When ever I am shy or know I cant handle long talk I just write it in email or in letter.

I told doc my problems in letter and people long stuff in letters it works no inturuptions no forgetting points.

Yes, I live and die by e-mail. Luckily the nature of my job lets me handle a lot of things via e-mail. To some degree if people don't contact me via e-mail I can get away making it fairly hard for them to contact me at all, and they can still get what they need via other methods other than contacting me at all.

Today's mess however, I think, was beyond what I could get away e-mailing or letter writing. You might be able to argue that it should have been done in person instead of over the phone. But I'm doing the best that I can here... But yes, I did manage to stand my ground and I accommplished what I needed to do, even when the person on the other end went ballistic on me.