It's getting worse.

[xnn]

At wednesday I was at my social worker and talked about my social phobia. It's so nice to talk to her. She's super nice, understands and is supportive. At the end she gave me a hug.
When I'm not there I feel sad and depressed. I have noone to talk to. Today I tried to go to the shopping centre. Normally this is not a problem for me. But today I got really anxiety around so many people. I felt ugly and that there is something wrong with me and all the other people are better than me. I had to get home asap. I'm getting more depressed and life feels really pointless. Nothing is fun. I can't have fun at all. I can't watch tv or movies, because it bores me. I'm tired and sleepy all the time. Life really sucks. I don't know how to get through the rest of the week. I have next appoitment with my social worker on wednesday next week. It's so long.:sad:

 

[theory816]

How can I say this without sounding offensive...What you are looking for is attention. You are not ugly. People are not judging you. Its actually really hard to tell if someone has SA unless they make it noticeable. Life is very fun and it doesnt seem that way at the moment but it really is. Its ok that you have no friends at the moment but it will come once you become at peace with yourself.

 

[Earthcircle]

Everyone deserves attention. I wish I could hug you, and I don't even know your gender or age or anything. lol

I often feel the same way myself. I am sometimes in a good mood, but then find that my mood crashes for seemingly trivial reasons, like the weather changing or someone not being able to keep a date with me. (I don't mean to imply that I actually get any dates. I was speaking loosely.)