the "How attractive do you think you are to the opposite sex" thread got me thinking...while rationally, i'd say i'm about an 8 physically, i feel like a 2 (year old). which brings us to the following super-tangent:
i'm a great actor. so good, in fact, that no one knows it's an act at all.
perhaps i can explain myself a bit better...but uh, only if you watch american idol, lol -
while Siobhan is definitely physically attractive and has an excellent stage presence, once the music stops, i suspect even a fifth-grader could instantly detect that she's just a bit "off"...which is most likely due to asperger's syndrome. nope, i'm not a doctor - but i'm somewhat of an "expert" on the subject - seeing as i was born with an extremely similar disorder called NLD.
yet, unlike Siobhan, I am able to keep up the "act" once the music stops - but doing so for one's entire life is super stressful - and there's always that possibility looming over my head that at any moment my cover will be blown and everyone will see the real me - the (wo)man behind the curtain - the hideous me - the one who is severely deficient in social competence...
and there ain't no fixin' it - as no amount of therapy will ever be able to repair my slight, yet permanent brain damage - which is at the root of my SP.
btw, it was just a few years ago that i told my doctor about my suspicions of having an autism spectrum disorder. after in-depth testing, i turned out to be correct, unfortunately...
yet, even more shocking (to me, anyway):
no one, not even my own parents, ever got the slightest inkling that there was anything "wrong" with me while growing up. in fact, they never even knew about my lifelong struggle with severe SP until i TOLD them...at age 25.
that is just how good my act is.
i'm a great actor. so good, in fact, that no one knows it's an act at all.
perhaps i can explain myself a bit better...but uh, only if you watch american idol, lol -
while Siobhan is definitely physically attractive and has an excellent stage presence, once the music stops, i suspect even a fifth-grader could instantly detect that she's just a bit "off"...which is most likely due to asperger's syndrome. nope, i'm not a doctor - but i'm somewhat of an "expert" on the subject - seeing as i was born with an extremely similar disorder called NLD.
yet, unlike Siobhan, I am able to keep up the "act" once the music stops - but doing so for one's entire life is super stressful - and there's always that possibility looming over my head that at any moment my cover will be blown and everyone will see the real me - the (wo)man behind the curtain - the hideous me - the one who is severely deficient in social competence...
and there ain't no fixin' it - as no amount of therapy will ever be able to repair my slight, yet permanent brain damage - which is at the root of my SP.
btw, it was just a few years ago that i told my doctor about my suspicions of having an autism spectrum disorder. after in-depth testing, i turned out to be correct, unfortunately...
yet, even more shocking (to me, anyway):
no one, not even my own parents, ever got the slightest inkling that there was anything "wrong" with me while growing up. in fact, they never even knew about my lifelong struggle with severe SP until i TOLD them...at age 25.
that is just how good my act is.