Tim001
Well-known member
Here I am sitting in my office pondering life. My co-workers just got back from lunch at the restaurant across the street. I ate my lunch at my desk and continued working. I don't get invited and it's obvious they go out of their way to exclude me. I guess, because I am quiet, they feel that I don't add anything to the conversations and that I am boring.
Once we are working, they never hesitate to ask for information from me to make themselves look good. At these times I am a "great guy" and a "team player" I put up with it because, deep down, I want them to like me and include me. It never happens though. I'm so tired of being a doormat, but I don't know what to do? I feel like running away, but I've found out long ago that you can't run away from this horrible condition. I'm so tired of the way my life is, that I'm numb. I feel alien, like there is something very horribly wrong with me.
Does anyone have SA in their dreams? I don't. In my dreams I am SA free, confident, wise, popular and treated with respect. I have tons of friends, a great sense of humor and I always say the right things and people love me. I am a totally different person. Many times I get depressed when I wake up to find out it's just a dream.

Once we are working, they never hesitate to ask for information from me to make themselves look good. At these times I am a "great guy" and a "team player" I put up with it because, deep down, I want them to like me and include me. It never happens though. I'm so tired of being a doormat, but I don't know what to do? I feel like running away, but I've found out long ago that you can't run away from this horrible condition. I'm so tired of the way my life is, that I'm numb. I feel alien, like there is something very horribly wrong with me.
Does anyone have SA in their dreams? I don't. In my dreams I am SA free, confident, wise, popular and treated with respect. I have tons of friends, a great sense of humor and I always say the right things and people love me. I am a totally different person. Many times I get depressed when I wake up to find out it's just a dream.