ilovemum
New member
hi , i'm not sure whether i've got social phobia or not, but i've definatly got something wrong with me i think.
Since i was about 14 i've always got worried about what to talk about with certain people.They were friends in a way but i wouldn't really
'know'them, not like real friends which can just talk and talk.i would 'forget' my books at school so that i wouldn't have to walk to lessons with them,
but if there was three of us it was fine though. but then i had about 2 proper friends who i wouldn't be embarrassed about being with.
I'm 21 now and still worry just as much about what to talk about with some people, i think that i am the one who is boring when both of us are silent,
which i know is rediculous.
last summer i stupidly took a lot of pills (mdma) , and somthing changed inside me .
i fogot where to look when talking to someone!, their nose eyes mouth? something
that , before taking the drugs was completly pre programmed into brain, to look at their eyes obviously!
I also started sweating a bit when having a one
on one conversation with someone who i am not at ease with(a lot of people,friends of parent's, even my aunt!)
i start panicking, don't know where to look
in their face and not really consentrating on what they are saying. so i find myself relying on drinking before the social event,
so that i can talk to people.
All i think about when talking to poeple is 'Where do i look when talking to them? Also, where do i put my hands!'
but i don't get this with everyone though.
I feel i can never properly 'relax' in a social situation unless i'm drunk, but the thing is i don't get shakes or anyhting like that, i just sweat
a bit and panic.As i said with friends that i know i can be so relaxed,
but then there are some social things that i absolutly dread and have to get drunk at to relax
Is this social phobia? can anyone tell me?
Thanks
i'm a bloke by the way
Since i was about 14 i've always got worried about what to talk about with certain people.They were friends in a way but i wouldn't really
'know'them, not like real friends which can just talk and talk.i would 'forget' my books at school so that i wouldn't have to walk to lessons with them,
but if there was three of us it was fine though. but then i had about 2 proper friends who i wouldn't be embarrassed about being with.
I'm 21 now and still worry just as much about what to talk about with some people, i think that i am the one who is boring when both of us are silent,
which i know is rediculous.
last summer i stupidly took a lot of pills (mdma) , and somthing changed inside me .
i fogot where to look when talking to someone!, their nose eyes mouth? something
that , before taking the drugs was completly pre programmed into brain, to look at their eyes obviously!
I also started sweating a bit when having a one
on one conversation with someone who i am not at ease with(a lot of people,friends of parent's, even my aunt!)
i start panicking, don't know where to look
in their face and not really consentrating on what they are saying. so i find myself relying on drinking before the social event,
so that i can talk to people.
All i think about when talking to poeple is 'Where do i look when talking to them? Also, where do i put my hands!'
but i don't get this with everyone though.
I feel i can never properly 'relax' in a social situation unless i'm drunk, but the thing is i don't get shakes or anyhting like that, i just sweat
a bit and panic.As i said with friends that i know i can be so relaxed,
but then there are some social things that i absolutly dread and have to get drunk at to relax
Is this social phobia? can anyone tell me?
Thanks
i'm a bloke by the way
