PhantomPod
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My roommate at college never showed up. Everyone else has a roommate, and I'm always the odd one out. Literally, as they're all in pairs with their roommates. I was really hoping for a roommate because I know that I'm shy and I felt that if I had someone to meet people with, then it would be much easier. But of course it seems as though I've been one of the only ones who doesn't have a roommate.
Some girls that I sometimes hang out with went to dinner last night. I saw one of their away messages, in the morning, that they were going out for dinner that night, so I went down to their room after my classes and was talking with them and asked one of them if they were gonna go get something to eat soon. She said no and that they were actually gonna be going out for dinner. So I acted like I didn't know and asked where and asked how many of them where going (trying to imply that I'd like to go too), and she said that there were 8 of them going and that they had made reservations.
I just think that's so shitty. Like damn, they could've asked if I'd like to go too. I mean, it's not like they don't have my screen name, myspace name, or cell phone number. But it's like it was because they're all in pairs with their roommates and I'm the odd one out always on my own, that they end up forgetting about me.
So pretty much, I'm trying to stop caring. I never needed anyone before, so why start now? Plus, I'm liking having the whole dorm room to myself now. I feel as though I should just stop trying to be frinedly with these people. I don't get why I'm always the one putting in the effort. None of them ever come knocking on my door or calling my cell, inviting me to do things with them.
grrr, wow, I really needed to vent that out. So yes, in conclusion of that whole essay that I just wrote lol, it's like it's fate that I'm the one who didn't get a roommate. As if I'm destined to be alone forever. Or maybe just this isn't the group of friends for me and I need to try and find others with similar interests? Yeah, that would be the positive view on this, but really I just think that it's that I'm destined to be alone forever and I should just stop trying to act friendly towards people who are obviously never going to give two shits about me.
The social aspect of college life just really isn't turning out how I had been imagining it all summer.
Some girls that I sometimes hang out with went to dinner last night. I saw one of their away messages, in the morning, that they were going out for dinner that night, so I went down to their room after my classes and was talking with them and asked one of them if they were gonna go get something to eat soon. She said no and that they were actually gonna be going out for dinner. So I acted like I didn't know and asked where and asked how many of them where going (trying to imply that I'd like to go too), and she said that there were 8 of them going and that they had made reservations.
I just think that's so shitty. Like damn, they could've asked if I'd like to go too. I mean, it's not like they don't have my screen name, myspace name, or cell phone number. But it's like it was because they're all in pairs with their roommates and I'm the odd one out always on my own, that they end up forgetting about me.
So pretty much, I'm trying to stop caring. I never needed anyone before, so why start now? Plus, I'm liking having the whole dorm room to myself now. I feel as though I should just stop trying to be frinedly with these people. I don't get why I'm always the one putting in the effort. None of them ever come knocking on my door or calling my cell, inviting me to do things with them.
grrr, wow, I really needed to vent that out. So yes, in conclusion of that whole essay that I just wrote lol, it's like it's fate that I'm the one who didn't get a roommate. As if I'm destined to be alone forever. Or maybe just this isn't the group of friends for me and I need to try and find others with similar interests? Yeah, that would be the positive view on this, but really I just think that it's that I'm destined to be alone forever and I should just stop trying to act friendly towards people who are obviously never going to give two shits about me.
The social aspect of college life just really isn't turning out how I had been imagining it all summer.