I'm not me

Croc

New member
Hi guys!

I'm new here. I'm 24 years old male. I suffer from social phobia symptoms since I remember.

When I was in age like 7-17, I've been bullied (even by people who I've seen for the first time) because of my appearance. But when I grew up, this defect is not an issue anymore. It fade away when I got height and I like the way I look like now. I really do.

I also suffer from some undiagnosed illness. The symptoms are: lack of energy, breathing problems, pressure in stomach/diagraphm area, nausea, general post-eating discomfort, strange reactions after consuming sugar and - the worst - total mental lock. In stressful situations, I'm all cold, shaky and paralyzed. Even though I don't feel too much stress in my head. It's like even small stress makes so large influence on me.

Several years ago I learned a lot about Candida and I think this is probably the reason. I think my body is toxicated as hell.

I'm eating relatively good, my only sin is a chocolate which I really love. During this years of finding out what's wrong with me, my diet improved a lot. I don't eat white breat, I drink only mineral water and I generally love vegetables.

I want to try antifungal diet, but I need to wait till I move out (3 months). In home, nobody supports me and other's taste is more important than my health. And it's too hard for me to refuse eating dinner every day.

I'm not me - that's for sure. I used to meet with people just to be perceived as social person, but I stopped it. Now I'm all alone. I hope that the fight with Candida will change everything.

I know that it seems like I have mental problems rather than physical ones, but I'm not so sure. I went a long way after being bullied by people. I tried cognitive behavioral therapy and it didn't change anything. But I feel okay with myself, just not with my reactions.
 

Srijita52

Well-known member
Hi, welcome to the forum. I'm sorry that went through such rough things. Good luck with you fight, I can see that your trying your best to beat your problems, stay strong.
 
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