I'm all out of weed

[IhateMyself]

I'm all out of weed and that is a problem indeed.

I've been self-medicating myself since seventh grade, primarily with lots of booze and pot. I've been to many different doctors and have been put on multiple perscriptions for social anxiety disorder and depression with relatively few results. I suppose a lot of that is due to my habits and lifestyle more than anything else but I've yet to find anything that makes me feel almost right like weed does. Shit doesn't seem to matter as much when I'm staring at the world through half-baked eyelids.

I don't know why I am the way I am. I had a fucked-up childhood but who didn't? I don't view my upbringing as the focal point of my problems at this point in time but it's hard attributing my current situation to anything else.

I've been on this earth for a few decades now and it's wearing thin. I don't know what to do with myself when I'm not high and I don't do anything for myself when I am high. This liquor isn't helping much, either, but it does make feeling sorry for myself a whole lot more entertaining.

What do people do when they're not busy getting fucked up or fucking themselves over? I'm all out of weed and up for suggestions... or donations of that mean little green.

 

[sabbath92002]

You really don't need it. Actually you'll think better without it. It becomes a crutch, something to do. But you can be just fine without it. The first couple of days without you'll be moody and grumpy, but that will pass. Eventually you'll gain energy and you'll realize that being sober isn't so bad. Try some cognitive defusion instead.

 

[steve1]

weed also makes people paranoid which is the last thing we need when suffering from s.a.
You will never make any progression with your s.a while your smoking puff try and give it up mate and im sure youll feel 100% better in your mind.

 

[newleaf]

I know