Just to let everyone know, the reason why I'm asking so much about sexual matters is because my memories of the past are too faulty, and therefore I don't know whether or not I sexually abused people in the past.
ALSO, some of the things that I am going to write might be really graphic to most of you. So here it goes.
When we were 5 or 6 years old, my best friend and I used to hang out a lot at his house. Now, when his mom wouldn't notice, we would go into the bathroom together, and take turns watching each other poo. I think we were just curious about, well, how it happened, and as far as I can tell, we had each other's consent.
But that's just in MY memory. I'm a bit worried that I sometimes forced him to defecate with me watching. In other words, without his consent. I don't know for sure if I did, and he doesn't know anymore. (He said that he just doesn't think about it, which might mean that I DID abuse him, but those memories are just so traumatic that he simply tries to block them out.)
Is it likely that I did something so bad, if
-we are still friends up to this day, at the ages of 15 and 16
-we have always been friends, or at least good acquaintances
-i have no memory of him yelling for his mom, or anything that would suggest that he did what he didn't want to do (those types of memories would stand out, right?)
ALSO, some of the things that I am going to write might be really graphic to most of you. So here it goes.
When we were 5 or 6 years old, my best friend and I used to hang out a lot at his house. Now, when his mom wouldn't notice, we would go into the bathroom together, and take turns watching each other poo. I think we were just curious about, well, how it happened, and as far as I can tell, we had each other's consent.
But that's just in MY memory. I'm a bit worried that I sometimes forced him to defecate with me watching. In other words, without his consent. I don't know for sure if I did, and he doesn't know anymore. (He said that he just doesn't think about it, which might mean that I DID abuse him, but those memories are just so traumatic that he simply tries to block them out.)
Is it likely that I did something so bad, if
-we are still friends up to this day, at the ages of 15 and 16
-we have always been friends, or at least good acquaintances
-i have no memory of him yelling for his mom, or anything that would suggest that he did what he didn't want to do (those types of memories would stand out, right?)
