Look UP. thats where you are heading .
tehStranger, hi ....wishing you betters days ahead. DEATH is not an option for you...if you think you hit rock bottom, then you have no where to go but UP. You have all the answers within you, look into your mind, your soul and save yourself from whatever hurts you so much. Look at what you done and said in the past that got you into this situation and change the things that didnt work. LOOK also at the many many times you succeeded and congratulate yourself and learn from those experiences. Man, take control of your mind and your life will improve. No more exscuses, just start and keep going. You know that i am right, because you are in this forum posting your pain...you are asking for help ...you want to live, so start your life from that bottom and rise up. Help yourself.