jtmullet
New member
Hello everyone I am new to the forum but not to ocd I have joined because I need advice. I have ocd wich basically revolves around the idea that everything associated with school is dirty but to give you an better idea of my problems I'll tell you my story. I think it basically started when I was 8 but I can remember incidents beforehand that would progress into ocd territory.But basically around 8 is when the idea was formed in my head that school was dirty it started off small just making sure I took a bath first thing when I got home but it gradually grew and grew but was still maintanable until around 13 is when everything kicked into overdrive and it grew worse and worse until about the age of 15 where I was taking baths that were over 3 hours long every inch of skin on my body was red,dry,cracked and bleeding.Every morning before I was forced to go to school I cried and cried begging and pleading with my parents not to make me go all day at school was basically a 7 hour panic atack filled with crying wich I hid by puting my head down on my desk I was constantly being sent outside and getting in trouble for qoute un guote defiance my life was a absolute living hell my father yelled and was hatefull to me constantly I was suicidal and would constantly pray for death.My OCD thoughts were so powerfull and extreme I would run headfirst into a brick wall just trying to knock myself out for a few moments of peace I never could sleep I constantly would wake up crying and in a panic atack.I was in a severe depression I never could eat when I was 15 I weighed less than 100 pounds there is much much more to my story but its very painfull for me to think about so I just wrote the basic just of it but fast forward 2 1/2 years I dropped out right after ninth grade and am doing much much better I am on luvox and boostbar wich helps alot.But as christmas is coming up I cant think of a better present for my mom than me getting a ged wich she want more than anything but I cant go into a school or anything like that does any one know of a website where I can take the test online and it'll qualify as the same thing?
