I need help >_<

[endlesspain]

Hello.. First of all.. I don't even know why I'm here posting this thread.. I just think this is the easiest way.. Im new around here and err.. I found the forum minutes ago and you guys don't know how am I feeling about all of this.. I mean..

Im a 14 years old boy from Portugal, Im very shy since I'm around 10 years old, but there's much more things far than being just shy in public.. I feel horrible when I'm going out.. alone or even with my parents.. when Im in public I start being nervous, I can't think correctly, I start thinking everyone is thinking I'm the worst person in the world, I cant be easily motivated, Im friend of my friends, you know what I mean? Im very sensitive, I cant start crying just because a friend of mine ask me if I'm ok or feel the worst person in the world when Im watching a drama movie.. I can't deal with all of this!

I already went to 3 psychologists when I was 12 years old, but they all said I was ok.. I cant pull courage enough to talk to my parents about this because they all think this is natural, they say much kids are shy and have this kind of feelings, but I don't think the same way! I'm depressed, I love this dam computer, I can be here for 10 hours a day.. I can be happy in this minute and then in the next be sad and crying..

I dont know what to do! I discovered this disease, the Social Phobia, and know I'm almost paranoid thinking in everything... My legs and hands starth shacking when Im in places with much people, link in the supermarket, or the school...

The school..I used to enjoy it.. and now I hate it because of all the feelings I talked about here, I feel rejected there, I had one teacher that made horrible things just because she didnt like me and Im sure much people think the same way..

What should I do? Someone please? >____<

My english isn't the best I know, sorry........

 

[Sacrament]

I'm from Portugal as well, so hi there.

You should tell your parents how you feel and actually show them. Perhaps, try going somewhere where a lot of people gather (like the mall) and let them see how you feel.

 

[endlesspain]

I don't feel confortable to do this, like I already said I already went to 4 psychologists, my dad won't be facing this problem very well.. I feel ok to talk about this with my mom, but its hard, Im cabe be happy now and in the enxt minute by crying, she won't understand.. >_<

 

[Sacrament]

That sounds like bipolar disorder to me. I think the best thing you could do is go to a general doctor and have him diagnose you the best he can. I've been to a psychologist before, but they can't really provide you with medication and so forth. Try going to a psychiatrist instead. I did it, got some meds, but they didn't really work. Still, they tend to work when you have more than 'just' anxiety issues. There is medication for Bipolar Disorder and so forth, so give it a try.

Also, if you want to get rid of your problem, you have to face it. If you trust your mother and tell her about your problems, then put yourself to the test with her so she can see how serious it is.

 

[lonely_world]

You are still only 14, at an age where hormones are crazy, and every kid at one time or another, is feeling akward. I remember at your age feeling like you do, and there is nothing too wrong with me, just depression and some debilitating anxiety and shyness. Believe me, when you hit your 20's, things will start to even out on their own. It's all part of growing up ! :wink: