no1
Banned
I know this is going to sound crazy...
Do you ever feel like, there is an invisible force which makes people, poke fun at you, until you can't stand it?
I feel like I'm being followed by an invisible force which makes people go against me, and humiliate me. I feel like a target.
I get happy one day, and I build up confidence, and I feel like I'm going somewhere.... and then. Someone has to f*ck it up, and it feels all planned by some evil force to make me feel powerless.
Perhaps because I know too much. Perhaps because I could pose a danger to this evil's existence.
The people who are involved in the targetting don't even have to know me personally, or even have any REAL conscious choice.. I feel like they are just... lead by this force to achieve this goal, of humiliating me, in front of everyone, and getting everyone else to turn against me in thought and mind. Distorting my image, so that I am left alone.
They are trying to make me feel paranoid. They're trying to make me go crazy. They're trying to make me feel crazy, trying to make me LOOK crazy. Until I DO appear crazy, and I try to point out what's going on, but nobody can understand wtf I'm talking about. Because I DO appear crazy. Inside I think I'm not, I was just driven crazy or made to appear crazy, perhaps to even myself, and the culprit is just hiding itself.
oh yeah, this is going to make me feel like sh*t, obviously. Who can recover from this? What can convince the people who now think less of me, that whatever was said, or thought about me is untrue? That's why I pop.
If I didn't blow up, would anyone notice that perhaps I am not what "they" want me to appear as?
Do you ever feel like, there is an invisible force which makes people, poke fun at you, until you can't stand it?
I feel like I'm being followed by an invisible force which makes people go against me, and humiliate me. I feel like a target.
I get happy one day, and I build up confidence, and I feel like I'm going somewhere.... and then. Someone has to f*ck it up, and it feels all planned by some evil force to make me feel powerless.
Perhaps because I know too much. Perhaps because I could pose a danger to this evil's existence.
The people who are involved in the targetting don't even have to know me personally, or even have any REAL conscious choice.. I feel like they are just... lead by this force to achieve this goal, of humiliating me, in front of everyone, and getting everyone else to turn against me in thought and mind. Distorting my image, so that I am left alone.
They are trying to make me feel paranoid. They're trying to make me go crazy. They're trying to make me feel crazy, trying to make me LOOK crazy. Until I DO appear crazy, and I try to point out what's going on, but nobody can understand wtf I'm talking about. Because I DO appear crazy. Inside I think I'm not, I was just driven crazy or made to appear crazy, perhaps to even myself, and the culprit is just hiding itself.
oh yeah, this is going to make me feel like sh*t, obviously. Who can recover from this? What can convince the people who now think less of me, that whatever was said, or thought about me is untrue? That's why I pop.
If I didn't blow up, would anyone notice that perhaps I am not what "they" want me to appear as?
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