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Earlier, I wrote this Facebook note about some stuff that has really really really been getting to me lately. It all seemed to explode out of me when I got into a huge fight with my live-in cousin the other day.
So here it is.
I'm not even home for the first two weeks of summer break, and already all hell is breaking loose.
It's bad enough that my cat had to be put down just a couple days before I officially got out of school for the summer. Now all this ridiculous b/s comes around.
I'm sick and tired of it all. I'm sick of dealing with other people's bullshit.
I despise my live-in cousin who could care less about anything but her rotten, ugly self. I hate how she acts like she's so much better and smarter than everyone else, yet she barely graduated with a 1.somethingorwhatever GPA and is stuck taking these boring, basic classes at RVC. I hate how she's so disrespectful to my mother. She should be kissing my mom's feet, because no one else would let her live with them for virtually free. She brags about how it's so nice and peaceful over at her boyfriend's mother's house compared to here (because my dad is always yelling at her, especially when he's drunk).
Well, if it's so damn nice over there, why don't you move in with them?! If you think it's sooo bad here, leave! Get out of my sight, and save my mom some stress! Go move in with your damn boyfriend and get knocked up and be a young mother like all the rest of these stupid girls! It seems the popular thing to do nowadays!
You ungrateful, unappreciative wretch. I regret EVER feeling sorry for you when your mother would smack you around. I regret sticking up for you during those times, because I thought you were better than that whore. Evidently, you're turning out to be just like her. I take back any sympathetic feelings I've ever felt towards you. I wish you'd just disappear and get out of my life.
I don't even like to be around people hardly at all anymore. It seems as if every time I get closer to someone, telling them my problems, they always proceed to project their problems onto me, whining for God-knows-how-many weeks or months! And then when I give advice, they don't take it! They respond with, "I can't just do that."
YES YOU CAN!!!
If you have a problem, take my advice and FIX IT! Stop whining about it and trying to find an alternative way around the problem to better suit your needs! Life doesn't work that way, and when you get yourself into situations where no good is going to come out of it for you, there's no dilly-dallying around the issue(s) just to make yourself feel happy! In the end, you're just going to end up even more miserable than when you first got screwed over!
Maybe if people actually set some standards for themselves when it comes to the real world, they wouldn't get themselves into the wrong situations or end up with the wrong people.
I know I was complaining about it for the longest time before, but at the moment I don't even LIKE the thought of dating. My social phobia has risen like crazy within the past few weeks. It's made me not want to be around hardly anyone at all. It also made me wake up and realize that the dating scene just isn't for me.
Why, you probably wonder?
Because dating involves sharing yourself with someone who is supposed to be "more than a friend."
No thank you.
I'm not willing to "share myself" with ANYONE. Especially with someone I BARELY EVEN KNOW. I don't know WHAT is so appealing about just dating some random person for the hell of it! If you ask me, it's like casual sex without the sex. You're calling someone who is practically a complete stranger to you your "boyfriend" or your "girlfriend." You barely even FEEL anything for them except for maybe a little bit of physical attraction. I don't even think I could imagine myself with someone who has been a friend of mine all throughout high school or college or whatever, simply because I don't like the idea of sharing myself. It's one of the reasons I don't want to get married or have a live-in partner. That's crossing the line right there. It's my house (or apartment). Don't think you can just barge in and take up space. IT'S MY SPACE! NOT YOURS! MINE!
And don't try to tell me that I'm "missing out." I'll quote my mom: "You can't miss something you've never had."
Oh, and also, regarding sex: Don't try to tell me that I'm "denying a natural part of myself." The fact that I can suppress something that's so "natural" just proves that I'm not an animal. There are people who have gone their whole lives without it. Don't frown upon that lifestyle and call the few of us who are still virgins by a certain age "prudes." The only things that the animalistic nature of sex has ever led to are overpopulation, abortion, emotional baggage, disease, teenage pregnancies, cheating, rape, pedophiles, prostitution, and drama, among many other sick things.
Yeah, that's some real great results there.
And no, don't you dare assume I'm trying to persuade anyone to follow the path of abstinence. If you see the good results of sex, fine. I'm glad SOMEONE does, because I sure as hell don't. The only time I see any good results of it is in books, movies, and TV shows. In other words, in the FICTIONAL realm.
Another thing: Since I'm not trying to persuade anyone into my choices, I better NOT be getting any responses to this from people trying to persuade me into their choices. Why is it that the abstinence-only crowd can't persuade, but the crowd into sex can? Dirty hypocrites.
Anyway, I'm tired of society trying to push all their views of life on me. I'm sick of being bombarded with crap about how life SHOULD be lived. If simply sticking my middle finger in the air to everyone and everything who/that has tried to persuade me into choices I'm not interested in actually worked, then life would probably be great. If humanity didn't suck so much, and unappreciate backstabbers like my cousin could be permanently eliminated from the face of the earth, I would be VERY happy.
But that's never going to happen.
I guess the only option I have is to ignore the people who don't matter to me (and the ones who think I don't matter).
/End venting
So here it is.
I'm not even home for the first two weeks of summer break, and already all hell is breaking loose.
It's bad enough that my cat had to be put down just a couple days before I officially got out of school for the summer. Now all this ridiculous b/s comes around.
I'm sick and tired of it all. I'm sick of dealing with other people's bullshit.
I despise my live-in cousin who could care less about anything but her rotten, ugly self. I hate how she acts like she's so much better and smarter than everyone else, yet she barely graduated with a 1.somethingorwhatever GPA and is stuck taking these boring, basic classes at RVC. I hate how she's so disrespectful to my mother. She should be kissing my mom's feet, because no one else would let her live with them for virtually free. She brags about how it's so nice and peaceful over at her boyfriend's mother's house compared to here (because my dad is always yelling at her, especially when he's drunk).
Well, if it's so damn nice over there, why don't you move in with them?! If you think it's sooo bad here, leave! Get out of my sight, and save my mom some stress! Go move in with your damn boyfriend and get knocked up and be a young mother like all the rest of these stupid girls! It seems the popular thing to do nowadays!
You ungrateful, unappreciative wretch. I regret EVER feeling sorry for you when your mother would smack you around. I regret sticking up for you during those times, because I thought you were better than that whore. Evidently, you're turning out to be just like her. I take back any sympathetic feelings I've ever felt towards you. I wish you'd just disappear and get out of my life.
I don't even like to be around people hardly at all anymore. It seems as if every time I get closer to someone, telling them my problems, they always proceed to project their problems onto me, whining for God-knows-how-many weeks or months! And then when I give advice, they don't take it! They respond with, "I can't just do that."
YES YOU CAN!!!
If you have a problem, take my advice and FIX IT! Stop whining about it and trying to find an alternative way around the problem to better suit your needs! Life doesn't work that way, and when you get yourself into situations where no good is going to come out of it for you, there's no dilly-dallying around the issue(s) just to make yourself feel happy! In the end, you're just going to end up even more miserable than when you first got screwed over!
Maybe if people actually set some standards for themselves when it comes to the real world, they wouldn't get themselves into the wrong situations or end up with the wrong people.
I know I was complaining about it for the longest time before, but at the moment I don't even LIKE the thought of dating. My social phobia has risen like crazy within the past few weeks. It's made me not want to be around hardly anyone at all. It also made me wake up and realize that the dating scene just isn't for me.
Why, you probably wonder?
Because dating involves sharing yourself with someone who is supposed to be "more than a friend."
No thank you.
I'm not willing to "share myself" with ANYONE. Especially with someone I BARELY EVEN KNOW. I don't know WHAT is so appealing about just dating some random person for the hell of it! If you ask me, it's like casual sex without the sex. You're calling someone who is practically a complete stranger to you your "boyfriend" or your "girlfriend." You barely even FEEL anything for them except for maybe a little bit of physical attraction. I don't even think I could imagine myself with someone who has been a friend of mine all throughout high school or college or whatever, simply because I don't like the idea of sharing myself. It's one of the reasons I don't want to get married or have a live-in partner. That's crossing the line right there. It's my house (or apartment). Don't think you can just barge in and take up space. IT'S MY SPACE! NOT YOURS! MINE!
And don't try to tell me that I'm "missing out." I'll quote my mom: "You can't miss something you've never had."
Oh, and also, regarding sex: Don't try to tell me that I'm "denying a natural part of myself." The fact that I can suppress something that's so "natural" just proves that I'm not an animal. There are people who have gone their whole lives without it. Don't frown upon that lifestyle and call the few of us who are still virgins by a certain age "prudes." The only things that the animalistic nature of sex has ever led to are overpopulation, abortion, emotional baggage, disease, teenage pregnancies, cheating, rape, pedophiles, prostitution, and drama, among many other sick things.
Yeah, that's some real great results there.
And no, don't you dare assume I'm trying to persuade anyone to follow the path of abstinence. If you see the good results of sex, fine. I'm glad SOMEONE does, because I sure as hell don't. The only time I see any good results of it is in books, movies, and TV shows. In other words, in the FICTIONAL realm.
Another thing: Since I'm not trying to persuade anyone into my choices, I better NOT be getting any responses to this from people trying to persuade me into their choices. Why is it that the abstinence-only crowd can't persuade, but the crowd into sex can? Dirty hypocrites.
Anyway, I'm tired of society trying to push all their views of life on me. I'm sick of being bombarded with crap about how life SHOULD be lived. If simply sticking my middle finger in the air to everyone and everything who/that has tried to persuade me into choices I'm not interested in actually worked, then life would probably be great. If humanity didn't suck so much, and unappreciate backstabbers like my cousin could be permanently eliminated from the face of the earth, I would be VERY happy.
But that's never going to happen.
I guess the only option I have is to ignore the people who don't matter to me (and the ones who think I don't matter).
/End venting