indigo91
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I never meet new people,cause I dont go anywhere unless I absolutly have to. I have social phobia,ocd,avpd,dysthymia,andpanic attacks.I have no friends. I sorta have a boyfried?Ive known him since 02 we lived together for 3yrs. I got diagnosed in 04. moved back to my home state in feb 05. We have 2 kids,they live with him,cause I dont feel I can be a proper mom.I feel so guilty. Hes a realy nice guy.He wants me to move back and try to be some kind of family.But he realy doesnt have a clue how messed up it is in my head! I dont think I can handle it! Ive tried,but ended up only staying there a week,a year and a half ago.I love my kids and visit them,phone them. He is a very good father.and takes good care of them. Ok Ill shut up! Im just stressing out cause he wants me to move there by the end of may,and i dont want to dissapiont them,but i dont know if i can handle it yet.
