My mom got pregnant at age 22 out of wedlock. She mysteriously died a few months after she gave birth to me. Nobody knows what happen to her, my grandma just found her not breathing on bed. I don't even know who my dad was, not even my family. I was living in the Philippines with my grandma when I was a child. School was difficult and kids would bully me. They said I was ugly and they were jealous that some of my family lives in America. I moved to America because my godparents were there. I wanted to live with them because I wanted to have a mom and dad but it was difficult. I didn't get good grades and most of my classmates were bullying me.So I started homeschool. My family seems so perfect. My cousins were athletic,smart, and talented. Me I'm just a misfit. I draw and I'm not into sports. I just feel alienated because I'm such a freak. I started self-harm at age 13, after an embarassment in front of the family. I went back to the Philippines to start a new education. My parents are caring, they said that I should make friends and do good in school but then I just go back on being a depressive teen. My parents even tried to cheer me up but didn't work. I would also feel that nobody likes me because I'm a freak. I didn't say my family doesn't like me but I would actually feel that way. Now I'm here feeling homesick 