My friend I usually sit with at lunch wasn't at school today so I sat with 9th graders. I've had classes with and know them, we're cool. But I didn't feel like sitting in there the entire time so I ate and went walking. (I have the last lunch period)
My school has a second gym that's different than the big one. I walked to it and looked inside and it was empty. This will sound cringey but seriously I felt like crying so walked away. A lot of memories in that gym, friends I made I never see anymore. Some of them I don't even know what happened to them if they moved away or what. It made me feel like a failure of a person.
And in my next class my neighbors grandson said sup to me. I said sup back. I was surprised...if I was a normal person we probably would have been friends. We are the same age and I remember when we were like 6 he would come over and try to get me to play with him. But I was so scared of people, I would tell my mom I didn't want to and she would tell him I was busy with something maybe later.
Now I wish she would have pushed me to do that or get me around other kids at a earlier age.
My school has a second gym that's different than the big one. I walked to it and looked inside and it was empty. This will sound cringey but seriously I felt like crying so walked away. A lot of memories in that gym, friends I made I never see anymore. Some of them I don't even know what happened to them if they moved away or what. It made me feel like a failure of a person.
And in my next class my neighbors grandson said sup to me. I said sup back. I was surprised...if I was a normal person we probably would have been friends. We are the same age and I remember when we were like 6 he would come over and try to get me to play with him. But I was so scared of people, I would tell my mom I didn't want to and she would tell him I was busy with something maybe later.
Now I wish she would have pushed me to do that or get me around other kids at a earlier age.
