i am going to make a fresh start.

[butterfly_girl]

today I managed to get my butt out of bed and into work, it was weird being back and quite scary at first but i feel much better for it.

I feel a tiny bit motivated today and it has made me realise i am going to make a fresh start.

because of my sp, i had become incredibly de-motivated to the point where I wasnt going out anymore and I'd let loads of people down, as id slept through appointments, and not turned up for work and let my friends down.

from today i have decided it is never ever going to happen again. i may have let myself down but i dont ever want to let anyone else down ever again.

i am setting myself a plan. to get out of bed at atleast 8am every morning to ensure my sleep pattern doesnt get messed up, as in the past if i sleep in it makes me un-motivated and depressed, and is a bad habit and a vicious cycle
. then im going to turn up for all my university lectures and work harder (as i only have 2 years left till i complete my degree).

After I have got back into the swing of being in the real world i am going to set myself challenges to become more confident, by each day forcing myself to do something which i find scary and facing 1 fear a day.

i am going to make more effort to see my friends and help other people too and im not going to fail myself.

sorry had to share my positive thoughts. i know its not going to be easy but i know its not impossible, all i need at the very least is self belief and by hitting rock bottom yesterday ive realised the only way now is forward. i will succeed and anyone who tries to tell me otherwise is no longer worth my time. it may sound selfish but i am going to concentrate on trying to love myself and learning to be comfortable in my own skin as ive lived in this pathetic self-hatred for so long.

 

[dzerklis]

wow so inspiring
good for ya :wink:

 

[SilentOutlaw]

That is great news :!: . Setting goals and following a set plan is a very good idea. Stick with it and you could gain a lot of confidence to help you overcome a lot of your anxietys. I wish you all the best following that plan and hope you can achieve all of your goals.

 

[beautiful]

You are one brave & positive person butterfly

I wish you all the happiness and good luck in the future

Hopefully one day I will have the same motivation as you

well done!!!

 

[butterfly_girl]

thanks guys i will keep you posted on how things are going and stuff. the first thing i have to do is have an early night to ensure i wake up on time tomorrow.

nite everyone x x x

and ps to beautiful:you can have the motivation, i have it just from pure fear of living like this for the rest of my life. i got to the point where i was contemplating ending my life. when its that or give it one last shot you know which one you have to choose.

good luck x x x x x x

 

[newshyguy]

yo

keep doing your thing ma

Life Is Good

 

[allanboy]

It´s gonna be tough in the begining, i think you know that too. But hell, it´s worth the sweat.

If you have any updates on your new life style, post em here. Me, at least, am interested in them

 

[Sue]

you are totaly bad ass and i know that the choice you have made is going to make a huge difference in your life. i know this because i made it myself and i am kicking ass now. you really need to keep it up though and i have no doubt that you will. its hard at the start but it will become so natural to you that you will not be able to go back to the life you left behind.

the bad ass butterfly girl is on a total role

be proud of yourself for making the choice

 

[Nytro]

Wow good for you I know you'll get outta the hole, that drive to keep going is always stronger than those negative ones that held you back in the past. Hold on to that positve attitiude, it'll help you greatly. I wish you the best!

 

[IcanDoIt]

good for u that you decide to change the life ur living in right now.

yea, create a goal, make a plan, and stick by it everyday.

even if you fail, dont even think about it, just move on and persevere. i cant emphasise on that.

yea, it may seem impossible, but trust me, if you just keep on with your plans you will succeed.

there may be ups and downs, but the ups will emerge victorious.

it all depends on you.

you will only fail if you admit defeat.

 

[Angie_05]

even if you fail, dont even think about it, just move on and persevere. i cant emphasise on that.



there may be ups and downs, but the ups will emerge victorious.

it all depends on you.

you will only fail if you admit defeat.

I agree. You set some pretty high goals, and I am so happy to see that. Just remember that it's okay to mess up sometimes or have days that don't go so well. It doesn't mean you can't have better ones. Make small steps and Good luck!

 

[DemonDayz]

woot! good job -- keep setting goals for yourself and stick to them, I couldn't of thought up a better plan myself!

good luck~

 

[MarCPatt]

good for you. Just remember to take one step at a time and to not be so hard on yourself if you fall, just get up and continue to follow your path.