funkylowlives
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Reading through this forum, I have found a lot of posts written by people, a lot of things which I can relate to. I am 18 years old and I think I have had this "disorder" for over 4 years. After reading about the symptoms of this thing called "social phobia” I have come to a conclusion that I might actually have had it all along, just that I didn't know that it had a fancy name. 
I didn't even know that someone could actually have the same problem as mine.
Let me explain you my problem…
I come from a family, of which I am the eldest, and I only have a younger sibling. Thus growing up, there was no one that I could socialize with much, and I had always hesitated to speak to my parents, assuming that they won’t understand me. Throughout most of my childhood, I had been attached to computers. High school onwards, I began to lock myself up in my room and continue to be attached to the computer. Soon I became so absorbed in it that I stopped bothering about what was going on in my real life and isolated myself from everyone.
First off, I became distant to my parents, I became distant to the very few friends that I had, and soon, I started avoiding people. The only place I felt comfortable was in my room.
So, this year, I moved to a new country to pursue my studies. My problem has gotten worse, especially since I am distant with my family and the fact that meeting new people has become a fear. It has been 9 months since I have moved in with an old colleague (whom I knew for a year, and have been close to her in the past, just not anymore) and her husband (They are both 23 years old). To give you a rough idea, we are not in good terms anymore, mainly because of the way I am.
Why?
For the last 9 months, my daily routine consists of nothing more than going to college and being in my room. Weekends are solely spent inside my room, either sleeping or being near the pc.
I don’t feel like a normal person anymore. I am paranoid about every little thing that I do. I am overly sensitive to criticism. Overly worried about others judging me. I am scared of meeting new people. My self-esteem has dropped so low to the point that I have this feeling all the time, that nobody wants to be with me.
Because I AVOID people. I can’t express myself properly in real life, I really struggle with this, and this inability to express myself makes me come off as stupid.
I can go on describing my problems. I even have the symptoms of getting nervous, getting distracted for nothing, insomnia, and sweating and whatnot. I feel uneasy all the time, UNLESS I am in my room.
So today, my housemates have finally confronted me. They criticized the way I am, and they have made it clear that I have made a really bad impression on them.
I need a solution to this. Or perhaps some tips on how to deal with my situation.
I really do want to get out of this.
Thanks in advance.
I didn't even know that someone could actually have the same problem as mine.Let me explain you my problem…
I come from a family, of which I am the eldest, and I only have a younger sibling. Thus growing up, there was no one that I could socialize with much, and I had always hesitated to speak to my parents, assuming that they won’t understand me. Throughout most of my childhood, I had been attached to computers. High school onwards, I began to lock myself up in my room and continue to be attached to the computer. Soon I became so absorbed in it that I stopped bothering about what was going on in my real life and isolated myself from everyone.
First off, I became distant to my parents, I became distant to the very few friends that I had, and soon, I started avoiding people. The only place I felt comfortable was in my room.
So, this year, I moved to a new country to pursue my studies. My problem has gotten worse, especially since I am distant with my family and the fact that meeting new people has become a fear. It has been 9 months since I have moved in with an old colleague (whom I knew for a year, and have been close to her in the past, just not anymore) and her husband (They are both 23 years old). To give you a rough idea, we are not in good terms anymore, mainly because of the way I am.
Why?
For the last 9 months, my daily routine consists of nothing more than going to college and being in my room. Weekends are solely spent inside my room, either sleeping or being near the pc.
I don’t feel like a normal person anymore. I am paranoid about every little thing that I do. I am overly sensitive to criticism. Overly worried about others judging me. I am scared of meeting new people. My self-esteem has dropped so low to the point that I have this feeling all the time, that nobody wants to be with me.
Because I AVOID people. I can’t express myself properly in real life, I really struggle with this, and this inability to express myself makes me come off as stupid.
I can go on describing my problems. I even have the symptoms of getting nervous, getting distracted for nothing, insomnia, and sweating and whatnot. I feel uneasy all the time, UNLESS I am in my room.
So today, my housemates have finally confronted me. They criticized the way I am, and they have made it clear that I have made a really bad impression on them.
I need a solution to this. Or perhaps some tips on how to deal with my situation.
I really do want to get out of this.
Thanks in advance.
