statesky
New member
Hi I'm a newbie to SPW. I am 16 and have experienced an sp since I was 6(As a result of severe bullying throughout primary school) only in the last couple of years ago have I realised how bad it was.
I am afraid of everyone at school to some degree. Whenever I go to school I feel nervous. The only thing that defends me outside of school is the fact that I usually don't have to talk to people much. Most people are really friendly and try to start a conversation with me but it always never gets off the ground.
It's not a matter of everybody's against me or feeling like i'm ugly I just feel an unconcious barrier in front of me. I have talked to my parents, gone to a psycologist for a while but it never goes. I quitted my weekly sessions with a psycologist as for once i felt confident since then I have never bothered to go again. Perhaps I should but then again I know exactly what to do to get it going but i always fail at it because of fear. Fear of rejection and sometimes even I worry about how rough they are. I just don't know what to do. Everyday and everynight I think to myself I'm going to talk to that him/her but in the end i always don't do it and somtimes I feel some type of weird confindence. "Yeah I can't do it now really but at lunch I'll be able to do it fine" or "perhaps I should wait until they are all sitting down with their friends then I can just say hey whats up to them!"
I don't know it's stupid and it's wasting my entire life away.
I don't want to be like this! Some people think that I'm gay cause when I'm around girls and they are flirting with me I get scared of them and run. Sometimes they ask me out and I feel scared and say no! I've rejected all girls who have ever asked me out!!! I wish I didn't have this social phobia its killing me!!! Anyone got any ideas to help me out?
I am afraid of everyone at school to some degree. Whenever I go to school I feel nervous. The only thing that defends me outside of school is the fact that I usually don't have to talk to people much. Most people are really friendly and try to start a conversation with me but it always never gets off the ground.
It's not a matter of everybody's against me or feeling like i'm ugly I just feel an unconcious barrier in front of me. I have talked to my parents, gone to a psycologist for a while but it never goes. I quitted my weekly sessions with a psycologist as for once i felt confident since then I have never bothered to go again. Perhaps I should but then again I know exactly what to do to get it going but i always fail at it because of fear. Fear of rejection and sometimes even I worry about how rough they are. I just don't know what to do. Everyday and everynight I think to myself I'm going to talk to that him/her but in the end i always don't do it and somtimes I feel some type of weird confindence. "Yeah I can't do it now really but at lunch I'll be able to do it fine" or "perhaps I should wait until they are all sitting down with their friends then I can just say hey whats up to them!"
I don't know it's stupid and it's wasting my entire life away.
I don't want to be like this! Some people think that I'm gay cause when I'm around girls and they are flirting with me I get scared of them and run. Sometimes they ask me out and I feel scared and say no! I've rejected all girls who have ever asked me out!!! I wish I didn't have this social phobia its killing me!!! Anyone got any ideas to help me out?