Relieved, because I finally got myself a part-time job.But also bored because until I start, I have absolutely nothing to do in the coming week.
I'm hoping to get one soon. I doubt I'd get anything right now, but maybe a couple weeks into the new year some jobs will start popping up.
it made me feel really depressed. ::
I'm guessing the family gathering didn't go well? :
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: Even making eye contact and smiling is too hard for me, so I have to say no, nothing I do is really something I'm comfortable with. Yes, i never really thought of it that way. I guess i have to change the way I approach myself. Thank you for the response 
I decided to give going out to the mall a try, as it's been a long time since my last visit. It didn't go too well for me. I was still super self conscious and i felt really depressed that such an ugly freak like me, is better off hiding at home. negative thoughts that not one female would be interested in a old looking fool like myself, hurt quite a bit.
One woman was staring at me, or should I say I noticed one woman staring at me. i'm sure there were plenty staring at me today.
i wish there was someone in my life to give me a much needed hug.
: But if you do have to go then my advice, people-watch. Like watching a wild-life documentary but with humans haha. Park yourself on a quiet bench if possible and even bring a book. It's a good way to get comfortable in public and as long as you don't stare at anyone for too long of course then you will see everyone is the same, you're not old or ugly or a fool just a socially anxious person who needs practice being in public. Don't be so hard on yourself. recognize that your thoughts are negative and not helping and replace with affirming ones immediately. I sometimes picture negative thoughts like evil entities that I am slaying with my mind, smashing to pieces. Death to self doubt.
Accomplished. Made donuts this afternoon and also tried out a new recipe I made, which worked great! Yay for holiday baking!
!?! And what's the new recipe you were working on?
^ Not yet. I'm going to glaze them tomorrow because I'm giving some of them to a friend for part of her gift, and that's when I see her. I'll save you one though!Chrono Cross OST - Victory (A Gift of Spring) ~ Victory Theme #1 - YouTube
Congratulations, Phoenixx
....So, are they glazed? ....Can I have some? Please? PLEASE
They're chocolate-orange flavored donuts. I wanted to do mint chocolate, but I didn't have any mint or peppermint oil or anything.... And now that I'm thinking about it, I could've used peppermint tea for the liquid! Duh! >.< I'll try that next time, I think. Since the original recipe I based it off from is a secret family recipe.
^ Not yet. I'm going to glaze them tomorrow because I'm giving some of them to a friend for part of her gift, and that's when I see her. I'll save you one though!
The new recipe was a gluten free sugar cookie one I was making. I'm not sure if I want to share it or keep it a secret.
.? On the opposite side though, is there are no secrets between friends. So, which answer will you reject and which will you heed?
^ Oh, I don't need anything in return. Thanks anyway though.Ah, thanks for that! That's twice you've helped me, you know, and I always repay my debts. So, what would like for me to do? You can have anything (within certain boundaries) you want, just ask
A lady is entitled to her secrets, don't you think
Relieved, because I finally got myself a part-time job.
Oh no - that's awful! They've already been through so much.Two more strong earthquakes today in Christchurch. These people have been suffering for a while now. While not as devastating as the the last major one, its still bad. The people who live there are beginning to get fed up, but they have no where to go.
Two more strong earthquakes today in Christchurch. These people have been suffering for a while now. While not as devastating as the the last major one, its still bad. The people who live there are beginning to get fed up, but they have no where to go.
Hope they don't get more severe earthquakes.
