Debbs
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Hi eveeryone,
Im new to this, just wanted to find someone who can relate to what i am saying, need a friend! I have suffered badly from social phobia and depression for 5 years now, i ended up leaving school 2 years early because of it, im 20 now, ive never had a job, never been to college, didnt finish school, have no friends, and am stuck with this horrible thing - to me the way i can discribe it is a big black cloud over me, i feel though i am trapped inside this body that wont let me do anything. I have been on anti depressants earlier when i was younger, but i didnt think they were doing anything so i stopped them after trying to over dose, then me and my parents just 'ignored' the situation even though it was still there and all the time getting worse, i then got with my fiance an he gave me an altimatum, go get help or this aint gonna work, so september last year i went to the doctor it was like hell, i burst out into tears in the surgery and was panicing to the max, sweatin palms, heart palpitations, trembling, dry mouth, sickness, i was breathing like i was having an ashtma attack! my doctor fobbed me off with some anti depressants called citalopram, but i had an allergic reaction to them after 1 week of taking them, then i got put on to amytryptaline, which i was on for about 6 months they didnt really do anything apart from make me pile the weight on, so i then got changed to peroxetin & got refared to a therapist to do hypnotherapy and counselling, i have been on these latest tablets about 5 months and seeing a therapist about 8 months now, it is starting to help me a little but i still cant do stupid everyday things like answer the phone, open the front door, have conversations with people, talk to my fiances parents, talk to my family (apart from my mum) i just hate life and wish i wasnt such a freak!!! i hope i can meet someone on here who has/is experiencing the same thing so i have someone to talk to as i have no friends at all and all i do everyday is sit in my home, while my boyfriend goes to work or out with his friends, im going crazy i just want a friend...please help!
lots of luv xoxo
Im new to this, just wanted to find someone who can relate to what i am saying, need a friend! I have suffered badly from social phobia and depression for 5 years now, i ended up leaving school 2 years early because of it, im 20 now, ive never had a job, never been to college, didnt finish school, have no friends, and am stuck with this horrible thing - to me the way i can discribe it is a big black cloud over me, i feel though i am trapped inside this body that wont let me do anything. I have been on anti depressants earlier when i was younger, but i didnt think they were doing anything so i stopped them after trying to over dose, then me and my parents just 'ignored' the situation even though it was still there and all the time getting worse, i then got with my fiance an he gave me an altimatum, go get help or this aint gonna work, so september last year i went to the doctor it was like hell, i burst out into tears in the surgery and was panicing to the max, sweatin palms, heart palpitations, trembling, dry mouth, sickness, i was breathing like i was having an ashtma attack! my doctor fobbed me off with some anti depressants called citalopram, but i had an allergic reaction to them after 1 week of taking them, then i got put on to amytryptaline, which i was on for about 6 months they didnt really do anything apart from make me pile the weight on, so i then got changed to peroxetin & got refared to a therapist to do hypnotherapy and counselling, i have been on these latest tablets about 5 months and seeing a therapist about 8 months now, it is starting to help me a little but i still cant do stupid everyday things like answer the phone, open the front door, have conversations with people, talk to my fiances parents, talk to my family (apart from my mum) i just hate life and wish i wasnt such a freak!!! i hope i can meet someone on here who has/is experiencing the same thing so i have someone to talk to as i have no friends at all and all i do everyday is sit in my home, while my boyfriend goes to work or out with his friends, im going crazy i just want a friend...please help!
lots of luv xoxo
