Dave4134
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The last paragraph is where I would really like some help if anyone could offer some. The first part is me getting my emotions out. I appreciate anyone who takes the time to help. Thank you.
Hello everyone, my name is Dave and I have read through posts here before, but not in a long time. I have had GAD and mild depression since I was 18, I will be turning 24 in April. Anxiety is no stranger to me, it haunts me everywhere I go and has stopped me from doing many things I love to do over the past 4-5 years. For a while I was doing great managing my anxiety. I have never been "fully" relieved of my anxiety but there was a time when I could most of the things I used to love doing.
Towards the end of October of 2008, my father passed away after being diagnosed with Colon Cancer that quickly spread to the Liver after only 1 month of being diagnosed with cancer. His death was quick and suffered very little pain (atleast that is what he would tell me). I am a college student and knew that as soon as the semester was over I would have more time to absorb his death. During the end of the semester I was so caught up in school and my dad always reminded me during his last few weeks that my schooling should be the most important thing I should concentrate on (which of course was impossible).
About 3 weeks ago, I started to get little episodes of anxiety/panic. Nothing serious and it was pretty managable. On Christmas day my full blown anxiety was back. I was in Boston with my family and could not be around anyone. I started getting the heavy chest, shortness of breath, dizziness, felt like I was going to stop breathing, couldnt talk to anyone because I was so out of breath, etc... Im sure were all familiar with those little annoyances. But there has been a new symtpom that I have never felt before. Often times during my panic/anxiety attacks over the past few weeks I have been feeling as though I just want to break down and cry, but I just cant. I feel as though one of these days I am just going to blow up and have a complete mental breakdown. I think I am writing this post to get this out and let people hear my story because it has always helped in the past. I am the type of person who likes to make everyone think I am okay as I have always been someone who has been known to be happy go lucky and so positive. Not many of my friends know about my anxiety and depression as that is the one thing I keep personal (I am a very open person). This is a very tough time in my life and I know I will get better, but I think that putting my feelings into words is going to help me.
But I do have a question for anyone who may be able to help. My doctor has given me a prescription for 15 pills of Alprazolam (Xanax) at .50mg. Has anyone ever taken this before? As soon as I take it I get instant relief and feel fine, but in the back of my mind I only know I am feeling better becaus of this drug. IT sure is nice to be able to do what I want, but for some reason its depressing to know I take it to feel better. I understand it is very addicting and I would hate to get addicted to this drug. But to be honest with you, it is the only thing that has helped so far. My doctor has also prescribed me 10mg of Prozac a day and wa swondering if anyone had any luck with this drug either. I have taken Lexapro before and Zoloft and Effexor. Lexapro has helped the mos before but last week it made me feel even worse, so I asked to switch. So if anyone couldnt give me any info on Xanax and Prozac that would be great!!! Thank you so much. - Dave
Hello everyone, my name is Dave and I have read through posts here before, but not in a long time. I have had GAD and mild depression since I was 18, I will be turning 24 in April. Anxiety is no stranger to me, it haunts me everywhere I go and has stopped me from doing many things I love to do over the past 4-5 years. For a while I was doing great managing my anxiety. I have never been "fully" relieved of my anxiety but there was a time when I could most of the things I used to love doing.
Towards the end of October of 2008, my father passed away after being diagnosed with Colon Cancer that quickly spread to the Liver after only 1 month of being diagnosed with cancer. His death was quick and suffered very little pain (atleast that is what he would tell me). I am a college student and knew that as soon as the semester was over I would have more time to absorb his death. During the end of the semester I was so caught up in school and my dad always reminded me during his last few weeks that my schooling should be the most important thing I should concentrate on (which of course was impossible).
About 3 weeks ago, I started to get little episodes of anxiety/panic. Nothing serious and it was pretty managable. On Christmas day my full blown anxiety was back. I was in Boston with my family and could not be around anyone. I started getting the heavy chest, shortness of breath, dizziness, felt like I was going to stop breathing, couldnt talk to anyone because I was so out of breath, etc... Im sure were all familiar with those little annoyances. But there has been a new symtpom that I have never felt before. Often times during my panic/anxiety attacks over the past few weeks I have been feeling as though I just want to break down and cry, but I just cant. I feel as though one of these days I am just going to blow up and have a complete mental breakdown. I think I am writing this post to get this out and let people hear my story because it has always helped in the past. I am the type of person who likes to make everyone think I am okay as I have always been someone who has been known to be happy go lucky and so positive. Not many of my friends know about my anxiety and depression as that is the one thing I keep personal (I am a very open person). This is a very tough time in my life and I know I will get better, but I think that putting my feelings into words is going to help me.
But I do have a question for anyone who may be able to help. My doctor has given me a prescription for 15 pills of Alprazolam (Xanax) at .50mg. Has anyone ever taken this before? As soon as I take it I get instant relief and feel fine, but in the back of my mind I only know I am feeling better becaus of this drug. IT sure is nice to be able to do what I want, but for some reason its depressing to know I take it to feel better. I understand it is very addicting and I would hate to get addicted to this drug. But to be honest with you, it is the only thing that has helped so far. My doctor has also prescribed me 10mg of Prozac a day and wa swondering if anyone had any luck with this drug either. I have taken Lexapro before and Zoloft and Effexor. Lexapro has helped the mos before but last week it made me feel even worse, so I asked to switch. So if anyone couldnt give me any info on Xanax and Prozac that would be great!!! Thank you so much. - Dave
