cobblestones
Member
Hey everyone i just recently stumbled upon this site although I’ve had SA as long as I can remember. I took lexapro for a few years but the side effects were weighting me down. I also talked to a councilor for about a year but none of my issues ever got worked out so I stopped seeing her about two years ago. I’m a 21 year old virgin and also haven’t even kissed a girl although I’ve been told I am attractive enough. I don’t really have any friends anymore because my old “friends” weren’t a very helpful group to be around (heavy drinking, jealously, drama, etc.). I don’t really mind talking to people but even I admit to being very awkward at times. My awkwardness and fear that people won’t want to be around me because I’m awkward drives me up the wall. I have made attempts to try to meet new people in order to get rid of my awkwardness but they were all in vain. I tried the bar scene which is useless unless you have a consistent wingman. I have a temporary job that requires me to interact with people but so far no one at work seems to care if I’m there or not. I go to school and make good grades (33ACT, 30 MCAT, 4.0 GPA, full ride +xtra, etc.) but I usually wind up sitting by myself in every class. I have tried to ask three girls out on a date since I came to college but they all said no. Each time I thought I was going to pass out right before I asked them. In short I feel very alone and fear I will always feel this way. Some days I really do just want to shoot myself.
