foyle
Active member
I do not know where to start. I am just a little lost. I moved to live to Ireland a few years ago and I did not make any friends. I joined many courses, walks, I worked as a volunteer in many events, gardening, etc. willing to socialize with no luck at all.
Last Christmas, I left my job because I could not cope. Since day one, everybody made jokes of my accent. The last months, it became physical. My supervisor hit me a couple of times and she threatened me as well. I spoke with the manager. The manager told her everything and the situation became worst. I had (have) really bad panic attacks, etc. and I decided to leave.
I wanted to move on, so I went to my GP and she referred me to an organization. They are great people. They do an amazing job. But I think that they misunderstand me. It is a new concept to me, but I do not believe I have social phobia. I will be more than happy to meet with other people for a coffee and a chat, but after 7 years, I give up my faith. I am in a point that I just do not bother to keep trying. I spend the mornings giving cvs, applying for jobs, and that’s all. Before, I used to go to for walks, movies, concerts, football, 6 Nations, etc. on my own, but now, I just do not want to.
I feel like if everybody have their own lives, their own circle of friends and it is closed, no one else can join. Since I am in my 30s and most of the girls of my age have kids, etc. I think it makes the situation more difficult... Also, I do not really like drinking, clubbing or shopping.
I do not know... it's like I belong to other epoch. I do no know if it's my fault because I am not as much girls of my own age.
The more I read your post, watch documentaries, etc. the more confused I feel. I really would love to hear your views. Please, feel free to ask me any questions.
Last Christmas, I left my job because I could not cope. Since day one, everybody made jokes of my accent. The last months, it became physical. My supervisor hit me a couple of times and she threatened me as well. I spoke with the manager. The manager told her everything and the situation became worst. I had (have) really bad panic attacks, etc. and I decided to leave.
I wanted to move on, so I went to my GP and she referred me to an organization. They are great people. They do an amazing job. But I think that they misunderstand me. It is a new concept to me, but I do not believe I have social phobia. I will be more than happy to meet with other people for a coffee and a chat, but after 7 years, I give up my faith. I am in a point that I just do not bother to keep trying. I spend the mornings giving cvs, applying for jobs, and that’s all. Before, I used to go to for walks, movies, concerts, football, 6 Nations, etc. on my own, but now, I just do not want to.
I feel like if everybody have their own lives, their own circle of friends and it is closed, no one else can join. Since I am in my 30s and most of the girls of my age have kids, etc. I think it makes the situation more difficult... Also, I do not really like drinking, clubbing or shopping.
I do not know... it's like I belong to other epoch. I do no know if it's my fault because I am not as much girls of my own age.
The more I read your post, watch documentaries, etc. the more confused I feel. I really would love to hear your views. Please, feel free to ask me any questions.
Sorry to hear you've been having such a hard time
